There's always this point of time when you give up on struggling and succumb to reality. And that's what's happening to me.
Happy Birthday Evan!!! Damn review tests. Or I'd go for the BBQ and wish you happy birthday. So sorry.
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OH MY GOODNESS. THE HARRY POTTER THEME PARK IS OUT AND IT'S DAMN BLOODY COOL. I WANNA GO!!!
And i feel this sudden urge to want to meet JK Rowling and make friends with her. ;D Oh no. My harry potter craze is coming back again.

Sometimes, i just don't know what i'm thinking or doing. At times like these, i'll always choose to do what i'm most comfortable with, to hide. I don't know what to do.
In this world, it's always about winning. You have the capabilities you be the head. I want to spend my holidays watching dramas, movies, going out to a cafe or something to have a drink, to write compositions, to start learning how to make clothes. I like to work towards my future. I don't like to do things i'm not confident of. Once i set upon this path that i want to walk along, i'll work towards it and make sure i'm prepared. But now, it's like i'm wasting time in school studying for all the exams and getting the pressure of getting As for everything, to not get kicked out, get above average results. So what if i study all these? All the pressure i'm under to get good grades, more than half the subjects i'm gonna drop in jc. So what's the point of my life? I know i need to study, i know the knowledge is necessary. I can't imagine life without studying and lessons either, without school with friends. But why can't things go in the pace that i want? Why is everyone forcing me to do things that i don't want to. Why is there so much stress put upon me? Keep your options open. Yeah. Keep it open. Not like i'll ever go into math or science. I know why Albert Einstein didn't do well in school. It's not that he's stupid or anything. It's just that he feels that all the knowledge given to him were debatable and he didn't want to learn things he didn't believe in. Yes. He was a great man, he went on to pursue his dreams, to do something for the world, he made a difference to science. But is that what i want? No. I don't want all these. I'm not going to follow his path. Convince me and i'll accept. Since you can't, you force everything into me and expect me to just accept all in one click. I can't do that. I hate this.

Wenjing fished her math homework carefully out of her pile of worksheets, dug an empty spot out of her overcrowded table and placed the homework right at the middle of the desk. 'Remainder Factor Theorem'
With a feeling of dread, she started to read the question. It was two sentences long. She thought to herself, this shouldn't take too long. It was 2pm.
Right now, it's 2 30pm and hola! She's still at the same question. Wonderful. Her brother had gladly left her to her own devices, ignoring her calls of pleas for help. She could picture herself right at the top of a castle tower, raising a white flag and 'BOOM!' the bullet went straight through her heart. Traces of crimson red blood could be seen on the flag of defeat and there goes the fine young life of Ms WJ. May she rest in peace. Not. Coz the homework has to be done.

I'm struggling to not ask any questions and just accept chemistry as it is but seriously, it's killing me. I DON'T WANT TO CARE ABOUT REVIEW TEST. But i don't have a choice. Okay, way to go wenjing. At least your bro is in the same plight as you, slacking.

I'm slacking with my bro right now :s
I guess the reason I'm still holding on to my blog is because I want to be able to look back at my past and compare. I've changed a lot. Probably more mature and more prepared to face the work force that I'll soon enter. The future I've planned for myself is not certain. I may not even succeed but I'll take risks. Some people say that the reason why males are more successful is because they dare to take risks. Well, I'm gonna prove them wrong. I'll take this risk.

I just feel like saying---- WHATEVER

I don't know what i'm thinking. The more i think, the more vague everything becomes. I don't exactly know what keeps me going already. Okay. I shan't think anymore.

I think i've resigned to fate. I'm actually starting to accept the theories in chemistry. However, i still feel that my wall is only half broken down. Please. Let these two years pass quickly. Alright 1 and a half more to go.

I had fencing today and coach told us some facts about men and women. He said men are from mars and women are from venus. I asked him why and he gave me this exasperated look. -__-''
Then, he told us this joke.
There was this best-seller book and it's called what males know about females. His friend went into a bookshop and saw a long queue buying it. He opened the book and saw---- empty pages. It was quite funny coz according to his description, he mentioned that the book was really thick. That shows how horrible men are. But that's not the point. After that i asked him why would anyone buy the book when it's all empty pages and looking at his expression, i think he pretty much gave up on me. Everyone was laughing though. (I bet they were laughing at the rate i'm making coach so fed-up.) Then, coach said that i'm a very simple person and i'll get cheated very easily. O_O??? Which is where i don't see the link. He said that the questions i ask will make males want to hit me. But then again, i can always hit them back isn't it? And why would they be so impatient to do so? (Okay bryan leong gave the expression that he probably would. But he's not a very patient guy towards me at least. So you can't count him.)
I think there's a gap. Somehow, i just sense it. Age? Why would there be a generation gap when it's just a few years. Maybe it's maturity. But somehow, i just see this line that divides. Maybe towards them what i need more is like a big brother or sister to guide me rather than a friend. Does it work better this way? So it draws back down to the senior junior problem. It has always been there. Just that i chose to ignore it. I thought it only happens in a uniform group. But i guess it's not the case.

OKAY PEOPLE OUT THERE. LISTEN UP OKAY. BECAUSE FROM NOW ON, I SHALL SAVE MONEY AND I MEAN IT. I WON'T GO OUT THIS HOLIDAY AGAIN. I NEED THE MONEHHH. COZ I'VE NO POCKET MONEY :(
And my foot still hurts. (Since i lunged the wrong way) I hope i didn't sprain it. :(

I solemnly swear that at the end of the year, i will spend every single day of my december holidays doing something meaningful and not just STUDY. I wanna PARTY!!!!!!!

I have friends struggling with 'o' levels and 'A' levels. And right here. Voila! I took 3 hours plus to finish one chinese essay meant to be finished in an hour's time. Okay. I should start worrying. Really. Haix.