I've thought of my choice before, whether i should have left or not. But after handover, my perception changed. I used to fantasize on the thought of still staying in ahs with all my good buddies and probably vying for a position in guides. Or rather,i've thought more of being someone like min li, to cheer everyone up and be that happy figure in everyone's hearts. For some reason or another, i think i've failed to do so.
Okay. Back to topic. Handover was over and the way everyone got a position and it was just right makes me feel that my departure was worthy. This certain competition for a position in guides was kind of lost after i left and i think it's pretty good, since there had been more than once i felt this position vying thing suffocating. Due to one reason or another, i don't really feel that the positions that several batch mates got was ideal but then again, i've missed out about half a year with them, which is also the critical few months of bonding with my batch.
My only pity is that i don't get to know if i'm competant enough as the position in guides reflects a lot on what i've been through in guides and what shaped me.
The moment i left, i've broken the bond and everything, leaving myself to become an outsider, although most may not have realized. I'm out of this game.