I think i screwed math test. But, NEVERMIND. HAHA someone farted in LT5 while we were doing the test. It was HILARIOUS. hahahahhaa. okay. anyway, after the test, i was SO SO SO SO much relieved and i see the clear blue skies in colour again!!! HAHA. Went to ice cream chef to have ice cream. DUH. What else can you have in ice cream chef? And then was FENCING!!! OH MY GOSH. I TELL YOU HOR. SABRE IS SO DAMN FUN. HAHAHAHAHA
Even CAPTAIN Marc says there's hope for me in sabre. HAHAHA. Okay. Sorry epee. I love you but the love is hidden deep inside. Yeah. Deep deep deep inside. :D
It shall be a form of stress relieve for me. HAHAHA. Miss tan and huiyang very funny. Haha restaurant city is driving them bonkers. Did i just say bonkers? Haha my son's name. ;)

13 is actually a very fun class to be in if there's no academic stress. Open house just ended. It was er... not much of sai gang work coz i left silently and peacefully. HAHAH!!!
Oh yeah. Everytime huiyang comes online, i'll receive a convo from him that says: Remember to give me salmon hor. (facebook restaurant city) HAHA He's not only mousehunt guy he's also restaurant city guy. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
A bunch of weirdos make a very interesting class. :D

Went to sakae sushi with farhana and angela. Finally. But i'm damn full. I thought i'd puke but i didn't haha. Came home to shit. Bought a cake for my parents though it's a few days late...
Haix. I don't feel like starting math. Oh by the way, Mark won the council pres!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! HAHA. IPs won't be neglected anymore.
Was watching japanese prank shows. DAMN FUNNY. HAHAHA

I don't know who i am.

I've changed so much that i lose myself. I have no idea what kind of a person i am. I don't know.

I hate the way singaporean works. I wanna go overseas to study.

All these difficulties make up who you are.

Yes. Stay strong.

what keeps me going...

i want to fly too.

I want to run in the rain and forget all my worries. I'm tired and exhausted.
There must be a way to get out of this. Do not give up. Persevere through like how you did for french.

okay. i'm saving up. Worse comes to worst if i don't get a scholarship to study overseas because i'm dropping my science, i'll just fork out my own money. I'm sleeping during recesses. I can't afford to not pay attention anymore.

I feel stressed... And suffocating.
I won't cry. Coz it's no use. 

All of a sudden, what i've been confident of ain't the case now.

I've thought of my choice before, whether i should have left or not. But after handover, my perception changed. I used to fantasize on the thought of still staying in ahs with all my good buddies and probably vying for a position in guides. Or rather,i've thought more of being someone like min li, to cheer everyone up and be that happy figure in everyone's hearts. For some reason or another, i think i've failed to do so.
Okay. Back to topic. Handover was over and the way everyone got a position and it was just right makes me feel that my departure was worthy. This certain competition for a position in guides was kind of lost after i left and i think it's pretty good, since there had been more than once i felt this position vying thing suffocating. Due to one reason or another, i don't really feel that the positions that several batch mates got was ideal but then again, i've missed out about half a year with them, which is also the critical few months of bonding with my batch.
My only pity is that i don't get to know if i'm competant enough as the position in guides reflects a lot on what i've been through in guides and what shaped me.
The moment i left, i've broken the bond and everything, leaving myself to become an outsider, although most may not have realized. I'm out of this game.

At the very least I failed with dignity. Don't give up.

Even though i failed my tests, i am proud to say that i didn't cheat.


Studying is not equals to passing. I need to spend more time studying my math and science. I will never be a rubber band streched to the extent that i break. I shouldn't be. I've been through so many things and still managed to keep myself whole in one piece. So why should i let myself collapse?


Perseverance. I used to have a lot of it. But what happens now? Why am i so tired?
You've failed much more french test than this. Don't let it affect you.

Chemistry lessons was horrible. Physics test tomorrow. Geog test the day after. Friday is just plain busy. AHHHH!!!

Math sucks even more today. So does chem

Today's rapunzel at the library was performed... to a bunch of kids probably less than 5 years of age -.-''
Alright. I wasted another day. PHYSICS AND GEOG!!! AHHHHH I HATE SCIENCE!!!

Haiya screw it whatever I'm dropping chemistry. Bloody sciences.

Did someone prank me or something? This person added me on msn and started a convo saying she's 21 and just came back from work. (BULLSHIT) Then, she asked if i were a guy and that we met on some website. She even wanted to go on webcam with me. -.- If i were to do what you said i'd be a moron. Idiot.

Today's a bad bad day. I wonder if I made the right choice coming to vjc... This sucks. I learnt that stress can result in such symptoms but I can't help it... It just irks me. So many times I felt like crying after coming to vjc. I controlled my tears but how long can I do so? If I were to stay in ahs would I even cry? Wenjing, you made this choice you bloody well make the best out of it. It's not the time to regret.

Criticism. The differences are big. I think I'm regretting.

I just hate this. Miserable...

2 days ago...
The ceiling fan in my room was faulty and my mother witnessed it smoking. As the switch is connected to the lights, my room has officially no lights. Which means, i have to study in the dark... :S
Troublesome. Bleah.

According to Matthew, everyday is a new day. I should think it that way too. Or i doubt i can survive through 2 years of IP. Don't worry, there's always projects to push my grades up.

I shouldn't be angry and increase the risk of getting high blood pressure because of some worthless people. That's it. If you anger me again, i can't be bothered with you and i'll just freaking ignore you.