SICK

That's it. Sore throat, cough, flu, block nose. I can't even sleep well when i feel as if i can't breathe at all with my irritating block nose. I'm feeling very sick and tired now. Medicine tastes like shit. Especially the cough syrup. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI FANG!!!
After the present and the very expensive meal at pizza hut, i'm broke. Hence, i can't afford to go to any restaurant meals from now on. How i wish i'd fall sick after my overseas trip and not a few days before... :(

My sore throat is getting more and more horrible with every second that passed. I have a little block nose and cough as well. Climbing up and down the stairs just make my body ache more and with every step, i'd feel excruciating pain throughout my legs. My holidays are ruined. It's like living in hell and i can't even sleep well. Anyone knows any sort of remedies to cure my sore throat before it gets worse?

annual hike '09

My muscles ache from waist to feet and to top it all, i've got a horrible sore throat. I can barely walk without feeling pain at my soles and my hips and my throat seems to be burning. I'm surprised that i'm not down with a fever though.
So, yesterday was annual hike. Halfway through, i totally regretted going back for it. With a sore throat, i went to school, climbed up the hill, which i thought i would never have to climb again :( and joined them for the annual hike. Flowerpecker and shark grouped and we were the second last to set off, with our trail one of the longest. Then, we set off and the scouts weren't very cooperative, walking way behind us. So, we went up the MRT and started to plot our routes. And when we set off to our second check point, the scouts were leading and they were finally speeding up. But, they didn't bother to wait for us guides and i went on to hold on to their bags. There were three of them, this yishun guy or yushun (aiya no idea how to spell) will just run off when i hold on to his bag and i would have no choice but to let go. The second, Daniel, would just follow yushun and run, totally ignoring my survival. Finally, the last one, the one and only sec 2 scout in the patrol, was kind enough to let me hold on to his bag and he didn't run like the others. Although i may have spoilt his bag, but well, that's just his luck. :P Anyway, we walked for like 21 kilometres, which seriously sucks. We even had to climb up this hill to hort park. And the hill is definitely way higher than Anglican high's hill. By then, i was almost dead and my legs hurt like hell. After that was another long journey to istana park, (at least 5 MRT stations away AT LEAST) and Denise and i led the way. YAY! Although Denise was the one leading mostly... (Wonder what will happen to me without her; we'd probably not complete the hike) And finally, i was actually at the front when it was the last 1/3 of the journey to istana park. And i practically ran and shouted when i saw the words 'Istana park'. By then, my legs were like breaking and the skin at the back of my left foot tore, leaving blood stains on my sock. And the scouts refused to navigate, so Denise and i made our way to Mc Donald house with the others following behind. Then, we went to Dhoby Ghout MRT which was far far away. I think we were at Tanjong pagar MRT then. No idea. The fatigue made me forget everything. Denise and i were at the front, walking like no mother hell, going all the way straight even though our legs were like in extreme pain. While the scouts followed behind chatting about computer games. Anyway, after what seems like everlasting torture, we finally reached and all of us just fell onto the floor to sit down. We were kinda pathetic, sitting down on any floor whenever the traffic light turns red. Our legs hurt so much that we couldn't even bring ourselves to laugh when we saw this green man and red man in the traffic light tilted. It wasn't straight but in a diagonal position. And after that, we still HAD TO WALK and we set off to city hall. By now, the scouts were at the front and i was collapsing at the back with April. We couldn't walk anymore and kinda dragged our feets along. This year's hike was like so much worse than last year's. As in SERIOUSLY. Last year's route was like one of the shortest and this year's was one of the longest. And in the end i was like the last one at the back. We finally reached and we were the sixth to reach. Which means, last 3. To think we walked like hell. OK. So that was hike. And i had to leave early so i didn't get to see Cui wen's patrol come back.
After i left the group of guides, i went home to shower (and i could barely climb the stairs up). Then. headed to Aranda country club, where the VJC seniors organized a bbq. The place is very beautiful, much nicer than all the previous chalets. The seniors were pretty nice. A group of 10v13 classmates including me, sat near the bbq pit and the grand seniors came to join us, talked to us and stuff. They were very enthusiastic and talked a lot. Seems like they've been through really fun times. And i've learnt more about vjc through them. They said things like how they hear this senior (indian guy) scream in the cinema when watching a horror movie. And this senior who shouted 'no, no, no' when he/she saw the sex scene or something from this movie at the start. It was hilarious. And their plans on drilling a hole on their classroom floor so that they can slide down to our classroom like firemen. Then something about what if the teachers fell in and we laughed all the way. Too bad i wasn't feeling well with my terrible sore throat, so i didn't talk much. In all, i didn't regret going to the bbq with my about-to-break legs and a burning throat.
After shouting at the scouts for the whole day yesterday, from 9 20 am to 4 30 pm, i don't think i have the voice to talk anymore. My dad was talking to me a moment ago and i could barely speak. It's time to fall sick man.

Tears are of no use. So what if you give your all for a friendship and in the end, get nothing but betrayal? No one will feel sad at all. There will only be me stuck in the sorrow. Everyone moves on. Without even feeling anything. So what's the point of thinking about it and getting myself hurt once and again as the reality strikes me? Some things are better left this way. I shan't think about it anymore. I hope.

Why do you have to break your promise? Do you even cherish our friendship? You went back on your words. There's nothing i can say.
My heart is crying. No point lying to myself any futher. The fact is undeniable.

More studying to go

My mum promised to fix me an aircon next year. YAY! I'm currently stuck with chemistry, in the second or third chapter and i haven't even start on physics. HAIX. Way to go, Wen Jing! My tuition's tomorrow and mum's going to Expo in the morning (i'm following her) to get the broadband stuff. Starhub internet sucks. I heard they'd be giving a free laptop. It's damn cool coz it's the kind of screen that can turn 360 degrees. But i heard my mum's letting my brother use it. So, i'm back to point one, stuck with this laptop that i have to share with my dad. :( But it's ok, coz someday, i'm gonna get my OWN laptop. =) It's always good to stay positive. I went to bed at 9+ yesterday and slept at 1. Insomia sucks.
Sometimes, it's not enough to just be decisive. You need to let go of certain things as well to forget the past. Things are interlinked. Certain people just brings back the memories, no matter how much you want to forget.

6 chapters to finish reading before Sunday's tuition. I've finished 1 chemistry chapter and wrapped most of my books. Still a lot more chapters to go. And i'd be starting on maths soon. Haix. I'm dead soon. I'd be going for annual hike next week so, see ya!

No one tags anymore... :( Holidays are kinda boring. If no one tags, i think i shall cut down on the number of times i blog till like next year? Alright. For now, movie first, studies after that. :D

I went to white sands at noon today, met up with yeeling and took neoprints. That was the worst neoprints that we ever had, i think and it was our first only two of us neoprints. We were like pressing random things and in the end had some sushi background and ended up at the wrong place. It was hilarious. After that, we didn't even manage to finish drawing and it was time's up. We were like 'huh?' Hopeless. What can two sotongs come up with anyway? Had Mc chicken burger after that. (Coz yeeling didn't have enough money) And we spent like an hour taking bus 12 to my house from pasir ris. A lot of crap on the way and we were supposed to study at my house but ended up eating junk food and talking. Absolutely no mood to study. Physics and chemistry to read. Life sucks. Tomorrow will be going to yeeling's house trying to study again, thursday going out with li fang and evan (Cui Wen still didn't reply me. Has that banana been mashed? TAN CUI WEN REPLY ME ASAP!) Friday will be going back for dnt club. I'm free on Saturday. Provided that i don't have tuition. Except for 24 and 25, i'd be free next week. Anyone wants to go out? :D

Alright. I woke up at 12 30pm. I was on msn conversing with vjc seniors and few of my classmates (though most left the convo) Haha interesting people. We chatted till like 12am++ In the end, i left the convo and went to sleep. Mass convo makes you catch no balls. Shit. I haven't do my physics assesment. Tuition tomorrow. By the way, next week shall be my last free week. After that i'll really start studying and reading my books. Way to go! Yawns...

last guides campfire

Alright. I just came back from campfire. There were its fun moments but i think i still prefered last year's. Maybe it's because of yijing ma'am and suan ching ma'am's cool 'break dancing', or maybe it's the music that kept our spirits high. Or perhaps it's just because i'm not in any patrol hence not participating in any skit. Even the level item i had no idea what they were going to do. Felt quite extra, neither here nor there. There were moments when i felt a little sour deep inside. Like when i saw annabella blowing into the campfire, i thought of outdoor cooking with cecilia ma'am and fp, what with all the 'my next blowing successor' and stuff. I'll miss those days... Everyone's shoes were dirty and muddy. I bet they had hell. Anyway, tomorrow will be break camp so i bet they'll go home to hibernate. Well, congratulations to them for graduating from annual camp at camp christine without dying. 3 casualties so far but i'm sure that the others can pull through. Cheers!

Give more than you receive

''Give more than you receive''

Well, that's what i learnt from today's vjc speech. Some Alexandra (not sure of spelling) hospital CEO gave a speech and though i was sleepy from the lack of sleep (considering that i fell asleep at 12 and woke up at 8 30), i persevered through and didn't wander into dream land. The talk was quite inspiratonal, makes you think of things that you should improve on and to change your perspctive. Being open minded is something that we should all learn.

''Some people come for advice just to want someone to confirm their thoughts. There's a block there and it's no point talking to them.''

When Lee Kuan Yew ask Raffles' students to jump, they say 'how high?' When he ask ACJC, they say 'why should i?' when he ask vjc, they say 'you jump yourself'

Those above were shared by the ceo. Meaningful. Although the second was more of a joke. Anyway, today was fairly enjoyable. And i found out that to get into drama, you don't need to go for auditions. Cool. There was this senior who's in drama and he cleared my doubts. I think i'll be going for one cca only, considering my tuition, third language and all the homework. Due to time constrain, i suppose that's it. Until i manage to find time, i'll consider another cca. And there are a few seniors learning french but they don't seem to go for lessons now. I do hope that i'll get some tuition from them. :D Alright i got to go. Get my bro's stuff in Orchard. I don't want to be stuck at home so i'm tagging along. Cheers!

introduction to victoria integrated programme

This trip to VJC costed me (er i mean my mum) nearly $500. Uniform, textbooks. There's a vjc jacket (damn cool whoots!) and a black tee that we can wear every wednesday. I'm getting them tomorrow. :D Every Friday is tie day. All have to wear tie. But i don't know how to tie... :P And the textbooks were like one whole big chunk and i really mean ONE BIG CHUNK. The textbooks are like all so thick and lots of science text. Geography and English Literature (if i'm not wrong) next year. For IP2 it would be economics and history. (that would be hell i heard) And one of the seniors said that he gets to sleep at 1am every night (or is it morning?) So i'm getting all the sleep i can get this holiday. And that's damn lot of things to read through before school starts. Haix.
Anyway, my class seems damn cool. First was taking attendance, which i then realise that i had to register. :O In the end, the teacher was saying that wen jing is not here and my new made friends were like 'no she's here' and the teacher went on saying that i had to register and i was like 'huh? we had to register?' Embarrassing!!! I heard some people laughing...And i totally didn't realise that i had to do so. We had games after that, organised by the seniors. They were all damn cool and nice. Talked to us and stuff. I had their phone numbers but i don't know who they are. Oops. :P Anyway, games were fun. It was just simple games but still very enjoyable. Met some really nice people. In a whole, i think my new classmates are all damn nice. :D Some of them are shy, some confident. In all, they seem very friendly. :) By the way, i saw Annabelle and made friends with her fellow St nic's girls. They were all nice. There were Angela and Jamie. Easy going. Met a primary school classmate, ze xuan. He seems to have changed quite a lot. Not appearance but more of personality. Seems more polite and humble. I suppose everyone do change. :D Come to think of it, i can't possibly judge him by his P1 or P6 self since he's still considered young and so was i. This would be a whole new start then. :D There's also this guy called Matthew (one of the few names i remember) We played this game and i happened to sit beside him. So he asked me for my name (trying to make friends) and i kinda remembered his name coz it was called out lots of times during the game. And another guy called Mark but i don't remember what he looked like. They all seem quite nice though. And girls overpower guys. YAY! 59 percent girls 41percent boys in the whole level. And even in my class, there are more girls than boys. I'm beginning to look forward to the new year. And i'm a little excited now. :D My classroom should be on the third floor. (Much better than 5th floor) And the maximum is 3 floors. So, Mwahahaha farewell, AHS stairs! No more 长城, 5th floor or hill.

in need of help

Anyone good in computer? My dad can't log on to his account and it states user profile service has failed to log you in. So, how do i fix it? If i don't get this settled soon enough, my dad's gonnna kill me. Anyone please?

仙剑奇侠传3

I finished watching 仙剑奇侠传3. Quite nice. Though i still prefer the first coz the clothes are nicer and the story better. Anyway, both shows have very nice music. :D Someday when i have the money i'll go buy the album. *I haven't receive the money that my chinese compostitions earned, hence i'm broke*

IP1

I've received email on the information of my class next year. Gracia's in the same class as me. And so is Annabelle. :D Guess what? I'm the only one in the whole level learning french... *shouts 'WHY?' in my mind* Cheryline's not in the same class as me. :( The booklist was full of books and they are all EXPENSIVE. Friday will be talks and meeting of new class cum buying of uniform. I'm experiencing a bit of the 'new school atmosphere'. A little bit nervous and excited. As for the discovery magazine, i suppose my mum's paying for it. (Well, according to her tone it seems so.) There seems to be quite a lot of vietnamese and PRCs. 2 Eurasians in the whole level, none in my class. *disappointed look* By the way, previously i went to the website of Switzerland hospitality and management university and requested them to send me the details of the school. Ever since then, i received emails of when there'd be seminars about the school. I didn't go for any and the person in charge sent me an email asking if i'm still interested. I said i am and told her my age and that i'm too young and asked if there're scholarships to get into the university. She replied that there isn't any provided by the university but that salary can be earned when we go for practical training. So, i guess i'd have to start saving from now on. D: I think i should really start preparing for the new year. Once i get my textbooks, i'd most probably have to start reading so, i guess there won't be much time left to go out or whatsoever. As for dnt club, i can't promise anything. Toast to a new start! A bientot! (Pardon for the missing accents.)

payment again D:

I just received a bill of $79 by discovery channel magazine when i supposedly have paid the full amount last year when the group of people came to sell this magazine. Unless they gave the extra copies and now they ask for the money. Money-suckers. Recently was phone bill now, some i**** magazine. *curses under breath* MONEY!

tears...at last

Yesterday was dinner at changi airport. Nice food and very filling. We fetched my dad (he just came back to singapore) spent half the time looking for the restaurant, then looking for our car. Heard my mum complain about all the stairs and stuff. Then, my brother's friends came over to stay overnight and watched soccer. Heard them shout 'goal!' and so on throughout the night. Tres bruyant. In the end, i watched my show till late at night and i went to bed. However, i did not fall asleep and i ended up thinking of my memoirs in guides. And, i actually cried. But i first started crying because of my sec 4 seniors and not those still in the cca. And once i start, i couldn't stop. It lasted for about 20 minutes i suppose. Because of the sudden 灵感，i started writing 作文 till 2am+ before i went to bed. So now, i'm feeling very tired but i can't sleep.

I've not touched my assesment book at all and i'm supposed to finish it by 11am tomorrow. D: I went to singapore expo today, fetched my grandparents to watch some opera, then went to the robinson's sale with my mum. We seperated many times, ending up with me calling her coz i wanted to buy some stuff. And i got my bag! A bit expensive though, about $50. But it has lots of functions and my books won't get wet if it rains. Mum's trying to make goreng pisang. Hope its edible. cheers :)

xbox 360

Today's my brother's birthday. He's officially a 16 year old. Yesterday night we were playing his xbox 360 or something. First was some japanese cum chinese ancient war game with all the super powers. Then, he played some second world war game and it was extremely creepy. M18 or something. My dad bought for him. Introduction was some Japanese killing. I hid behind the blanket while he just laughed at me. Disgusting game. Forced by him to play, i didn't want to and i led my soldier to some forest and hid among the bushes while he fought at some other place. Then, i went on to 'play' with the water, looking underwater and trying to kill myself. But i wasn't drowned. Finally, he gave in to me and changed the game---to soccer. I didn't know how to play at all and my players were all sliding here and there tripping over themselves. In the end the score was me 0 brother 5. We played till 1am. It was tiring and in the end, i pointed at the score, turned to him, and said that's your present. Happy Birthday. And i went to sleep.
I intended to make him a cake, so i asked : Do you want to eat cake? And he replied, ''You want to make me one right? NO.''
Look down on me...

few more days to a busy week...

I wonder when Mr tay is going to treat me and yeeling. I've a feeling that holidays will soon be over with a flash and all that i intended to do will be left undone. Things aren't as perfect as you imagined it to be. This is life, i guess. Today was nothing much, a group of guys coming over (brother's friends) and making a great deal of noise. I heard them saying things like 'Eh you never told me you had a sister.' and bla bla bla. They still have one paper left, some mcq or something and they're already playing now. Anyway, he was kind enough to help me feed the fishes. So he's forgiven for all the racket. :) Currently enjoying every free moment i've got till my tuition starts to flood me with homework and overwhelming things to learn. Currently wondering whether or not to go for class chalet. I'm free now, extremely. So, anyone want to go out just leave me a tag. :)

child care centre

I'm at my mum's child care centre now. I was taking photos of the children earlier on and the kids were extremely excited. One of them even started talking to me in tamil which i understand nothing and he just laughed at me. -_- Currently trying to settle my video problems. Peace at last coz the children are sleeping.

tuition starts

My first session of tuition for the holidays. I almost fell asleep. Chemistry now, Physics on sunday. I guess i'd have to start studying hard now. No more part time jobs coz i wouldn't have the time for it. Oh well. More compositions to write and i've to accompany my mum to her childcare. I AM GONNA BE BUSY.
My dad went overseas and he told me to take care of his fishes for these 5 days. I told him that his fishes will die if i were to take care of them but he refused to listen to me. And well, i kinda forgot about those fishes in the morning but i guess they'd do fine without breakfast. :D Anyway, i fed them just now so they should still be alive. As for dinner, that would depend on my memory. Good luck man, fishes. *innocent smiles at fishes*

tempted to buy books...

I saw the books 'quidditch through the ages' and 'fantastic beasts and where to find them' by jk rowling in a bookshop in tampines one! I've been looking for them for ages and now, i've got no money to buy them :(
Holidays are sad when you don't have money. Really sad.

headphones

I want a headphone! Earpiece is very ticklish and now my ear feels weird... My birthday's in February. *hint hint* anyone wants to get me one? If not there's always christmas. Or a farewell present? *smiles*

I'm going back for dnt club tomorrow. So if anyone wants to meet me there, i'd be there at 11am.

Leaving

It was halloween yesterday. I saw a family wearing those fancy costumes visiting a house nearby. Yet, i never once celebrate halloween. Someday. Someday i'll get the chance to do so. :D
I've been thinking a lot recently. Whenever i look back, all i remember of ahs were unhappy memories. And now, i finally realise something. That i'm really leaving AHS already, that i may not even see some of my friends anymore, that my final goodbye to them seems so meaningless. I wrote cards, but who will cherish it? Even if they kept it, they would have a little bit memory of me. But for me, i would most probably forget about them since most of them didn't bother to make me a card or even a small message at all. Perhaps i just mean nothing to them, a passer by in their life. That's reality, huh?