Today is my last guides act. Yunjin and rachel, both going ip as well, cried. But i didn't. I'm still rather bewildered as to why i didn't cry, nor feel sad at all. Is it because i know i'd still be seeing them? Or that i have no feelings at all? I don't know.
Just before guides ended, Charlene ma'am and Yingyan ma'am announced that 3 guides will be leaving for ip and said some very touching stuff. It was like a mini 'farewell'. I was touched but i controlled my tears. Then, Annabella and maggie came forward to say their messages and i was really very touched. But when annabella mentioned 'she's always so random and lame and crazy over her husband bob, which is actually a pendulum bob...' I was just smiling. I felt a bit bitter inside but not to the point that i'd cry. My junior, vivian cried because of me... I didn't feel much. I don't know why. It may be my last official guides act but i don't seem to feel so. Or is it that i haven't really accepted the fact that i'm leaving already? It's not like i'll never come back... I hope i'd cry tomorrow. Or it'll be as though i've no feelings at all. Maybe there'd still be something in this school that's worth crying for...
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