This is a hazy day

Wow. This is my 101 post already. RELIEVED! My french exam is finally over, although i'm pretty sure that i have flunked my science pop quiz. But, nevermind. I don't mind going for science supplementary since i've got no french lessons for now. My fench EOY written exam was kind of horrible, didn't understand what the comprehension passage was. Forget it. No use pondering over it since it's all over.
RI boys seem much more polite than anglican's. There was this guy sitting in front of me during the exams and when i passed the foolscap paper or exam paper to him, it's kind of different. It's not the usual way when someone take a stack of worksheet away from you. It's like more gentle. You don't feel that the worksheet is snatched away from you. He waited for me to let go of the worksheet before he really took it away. I bet you don't understand what i was saying. Forget it.
There was this guy whom i mentioned before, Cow, Now whenever i look at him, i'll think of a real cow. I was laughing all the way when i see him and just couldn't stop. His friends and him were walking behind Ainina and me and i could hear his friends going 'moo...moo' It was simply hilarious.
This morning, Paul seemed to have went haywire or something. He walked between the rows of 2a and 2b class but there wasn't much space in between and he managed to squeezed through, knocking and hitting everyone on his way. That sight was really amusing. I think i laughed for the next 20 minutes.

''Don't question the fact''

''My advice to you is to accept things as it is. There are things that science cannot explain. Don't question the theory now when you are still studying. If you want, you can come up with your own theory to go against the current one when you go to university to get your doctorate. But for now, just accept it.''

-Mr Hamizan

That was a quote from my tutor, after yesterday's tuition. There are so many things that even those who came up with the theory of atmoic structures cannot explain. There are so many things, like how the atoms work and clump together to form an element, that no one can explain. Like, 'Why does your heart beat?' If it were the atoms in the cells that move about to start the heart beating, then how does it even stop? And why did it even start? If it came from your parents, then maybe in the sperm and egg, there are atoms that divide themselves to form every part of the human structure, and one part of the cell consists the characteristics of the heart, it divides itself and form the organ while the foetus grows. Can an atom divide itself? Or in some way or another, 'give birth' to more atoms? If it is not possible, then how is it that the organs can be formed? And if the atoms keep the heart from beating, then why do they even stop? It's not a complete thing that is being taught. If they themself cannot answer my questions, why is it that they are teaching everyone their theory? There may even be part of the theory that isn't true, that has loopholes. But, as what my tutor said, '' Don't question the fact.''

quote of the day

'Come to 2C, i protect you with my wings'
-cuiwen
That's what friends are for huh?

3 exams in a day and celebration at night

English paper one=above average
Chinese paper one= terrible
french oral= comical
I shan't emphasize on the first two, since it's nothing much to talk about. French oral was just, hilarious. I got 'school' and 'inviting a friend out' topic. Talking about school was OK, since I've revised about it before hand. Just that the teacher kept giving the 'what are you saying?' face and broke into chuckles. I told him that i do not like my school, because when i question my teacher, he say 'check your book' and that i have to climb 5 floors up everyday to reach my class. It is very tiring and i don't like it.
The situation of inviting a friend is kind of horrible. The start was alright, but towards the end, he asked some question that i didn't know what he was asking. He repeated thrice and i stared at him, smiling to myself sheepishly. After a long while, i understood a bit and he was like asking what to do before the movie. I said to eat, he said eat what, and i was like e chicken? rice? But he did not get me, probably because i pronounced wrongly or something. So, in the end, i said cake and he was like cake for dinner? I said i don't eat much and after all that, he said the cake for dinner part is not very logical, though the others are alright. French orals have always been enjoying though terrible when you can't remember your vocabulary.
Mid Autumn celebrations was alright, not very fun or memorable, since i spent half the time talking to Phyllis. :) The performance was great, though the PA system was not very ideal.Returned home late, very tired.

science lab

Today's science lab was quite cool, the first fun lab lesson, i would say. We had the chance to watch some magnesium ribbon explode into a very bright, white flame and add some stuff into the fire to make the fire turn green. It was cool, kind of like potions actually. I'd be so glad if harry potter world really exists. JK Rowling created a whole new world that almost everyone would want to be in.
Meredith: Look! under the test tube you can see your reflection! So cool!
Me: That's stupid.
Meredith took test tube sample (that was passed around) up and starts proving to me that it is true.
Meredith: See! *acts like some nursery kid*
Teacher: pass the sample back to me
Meredith: No! i haven't see yet.
Teacher: but you have to look at this first.
Meredith: then i look at that first and look at this after that
Teacher: ok

She speaks like some 4 year old...I don't think the child care children even do that. -_-''
The way she speak sometimes is just hilarious. Maybe she learnt that from Li fang. Erhem *cough, cough*

How i wish to live in a world totally different from mine now. In a magical world far more exciting than this. Even if it means that it will end with a tragic finale, i wouldn't have any regrets. I would give anything for a life like that.

闭嘴！

今天，数学课，科学课，一头雾水，什么也听不懂。班上总是那么吵，不但不能专心，还听不懂老师在说什么。我快哭了。这样下去，我随时都会崩溃。没过多久就考试了，以现在的状况来说，考试，一个字---死。
累了，厌倦了。好想放手啊！我还有资格重新开始吗？

Selamat hari raya!

Alright. Selamat Hari Raya to all malay friends, though i think i only know one- Ainina. French oral and paper one this friday, after that i'll have to rush back to school for mid autumn festival. Sounds like i can't rest at all huh?
I was watching teen titans, the cartoon version (there's a shuai ge inside) and then, talked to cui wen and she was watching the 'don't forget the lyrics chinese version'. In the end i switched to her show and she switched to my show. She claims that i cheated her feelings and i told her: 'I just woke up from my dream and realised i'm not a kid anymore. So, i switched channels.'
cui wen:'learn from me one right?'
Cuiwen's the small little girl who goes around saying 'It starts with a T, it's triangular and it's delicious. guess what it is!'
Answer: tolberone -_-'
Then, she started 'singing' a tolberone song through msn. As usual.
Noisy though she is, she do lift people's spirits :)

There was this guy in third lang who tore his shirt sleeve and there was this big hole shown to public. It was rather revealing, especially when he was wearing slippers coz he injured his toe or something. I wanted to use 'sexy' to describe him, but it doesn't seem right since he isn't. And i've known him as 'Cow' for the whole year and today, i realised that that was his nickname. As for his real name, Don't remember. :D

You are totally not responsible and you always give the indifferent look. Even when you are at wrong, you give the 'it's not my fault' face every time something happens and debate is all you would do. Is sorry so difficult to say? So what if you score well for your test? Do you have to keep boasting about it for the whole period? Seriously, what the heck is your problem?

no regrets

These few months, i've thought a lot. So much that i felt as though my brain was about to burst. So tired of thinking of my choices that i really didn't know what to do. But, ever since from a long long time ago, even though i hadn't realised it, i had already made a decision, deep in my heart. Probably it was a few days before the interview, probably it was after all the wonderful times that i had spent with my cca mates, classmates. I was confused, for a long while, after you told me that you were leaving. Mixed feelings. I would say. But still, don't feel sad or disappointed for me. For i don't feel any sense of regret that i didn't get into Vjc. Ip is not only about leaving Anglican High. It's not just running away from my problems or from all the unpleasant incidents that i had experienced in this school. Ip is about the courses, my studies, my future. If i really do get in, i would have to study all subjects, which would be very tiring. Also, if i were to fail any subjects, i would be kicked out of the school. It doesn't suit me. Everything in Ip is not suitable for me. I've figured that out long ago. After the admission test, i suppose. If i were to stay, i would be able to study my double science, art, and my 2.4 run would still be the discounted track. Even though i'm hesitant about my cca, my third language and many more things, Anglican high is still more relaxed than vjc. I may escape to ip, but only to end up in another pit of troubles.
What really made me feel more certain and firm about my decision,to not look back and regret, however, were my seniors' reaction. It was surprising, but really comforting and warm. When they asked me if i am going ip, i said no and their reaction was really like what you would see in soap operas, those very exaggerated scenes. They were shouting in joy, saying 'yes, yes, yes!' and 'yay!'. I was surprised, since i never knew that i would mean any more than just a junior to them. Also, Clara had just joined our patrol and we only really knew each other this year. We kind of had difficulties communicating at the start, but her reaction was really of pure delight. It was really comforting. Maybe things may be not as bad as i thought it would be.

integrated programme no more

Hahaha! No more vacancies in vjc. I passed my interview previously but there weren't enough vacancies so i was placed in the wait list. However, now it's confirmed that there are no more vacancies and i won't have to go for the ip programme. Strangely, I don't feel very sad when i received the news. Instead, i feel quite relieved and happy. At least i wouldn't have to study all the subjects next year. And i want to take art! Hahaha! :D I don't think i'll have any regrets since i've tried my best, i made it pass the interview and it's just my luck that there weren't vacancies. yay! no more triple science, history and lab lessons without assistance! whoots! *sings sorry sorry sorry...shawty shawty shawty...*

i love mondays coz it's the best day of the week, starting with dnt to acc, elit and finally science. It's a short day and the periods before recess had always been so fun. Maths test tomorrow i should be studying but i've no mood for it. 3 40pm now. Bathe. nap. do revision. K. I should be hardworking. These days, so many things had happened that i feel really tired. By now, i seriously can't be bothered much. It makes no difference anyway. So why bother troubling myself? Since she can let go of it so easily then why shouldn't i do the same? This only proves how unworthy a friend can get. All these are just my luck. I can blame no one. After all, it is through these experiences, whether pleasant or not, that i learn and grow up. Are my friendships so weak that it cannot endure through the test of time? I hope not.

last day of school holidays

My beloved school holidays! goodbye... *sobs*
I'm more or less finished with my chinese, maths should be alright, just that i need more practice... elit is alright...did some notes already. Next Friday would be paper 1 and my french oral. Arghh. Stress.
I went to east coast park with my parents this morning, brother was sleeping like a pig, my mum and i rode the two people bicycle and my dad just returned home shortly after reaching east coast. >:-I
Mum and i bought chilli crab home for lunch, bro cooked rice (which turned out really soft coz he added too much water) and we had a sumptuous meal. Yum yum! After lunch, i idled around for like a few hours before i decided to do some revision. Hence, i finished my chinese at long last. Such an accomplishment! These days, i have really low concentration when studying. Hmm... Bad sign. Die exams soon. Can't continue like this. Anyone knows of any methods that can help to increase concentration? I'd be glad to try. :D

rainy day

cuiwen laughing with her mouth full again. So cute right? Adorable little kid who keeps singing non-stop and laugh with her mouth full of food. conclusion, cuiwen=broken radio
today's cca was mainly changing parade and modules. The climbing of stairs part was the worst. Other than that, all was fine. We went to tampines mall to eat, Cuiwen lifang evan and me. It was raining when we left school and we were sharing umbrellas, me and evan, cui wen and li fang, felicia and angelina. We were all wet and on our way down the long long hill, cui wen keep talking non-stop, irritated li fang and li fang just decided to not shelter her to make her shut up. In the end, cui wen was all wet and she kept saying 'i want my poncho' on her way down. Too noisy for her height. Evan and i just keep laughing at them and it was hilarious when the wind blew, coz their umbrella was kind of crumpled up and they were all wet. But, we ended up in the same plight as them, so we laughed at ourselves... It was pathetic. A bunch of chickens. 落汤鸡. Before we left school, there was this beware of lightning thing in school that kept shining to warn us. If anyone got striked, it'd be roasted chicken and the wind would blow the roasted chicken to our school. Hence, yeeling there are flying chickens.
Our lunch was fine, we didn't talk much coz we were too hungry. After that, evan left first and her mum treated us to donuts. Really nice of her. :) Then we went to shop for meredith's present, can't find her necklace so settled for some notebooks and a file. We went to the rooftop playground thing, cui wen was making faces in the glass thing of the playpen, (with chairs and tv that has a sign outside indicating 'for 12 years and below'). She forgot that the people inside can see what she's doing and she made all the stupid faces. Hilarious. We went inside the playpen, ignoring the signs that says 'no shoes allowed' and stuff. Cui wen offered to help me make notes for elit 'lee' and her handwriting was horrendous.
*note* told cui wen to close her mouth when she wants to laugh coz she tends to spit saliva and some unwanted stuff out when she laughs with her mouth open. She tried and it was a failure. Looked extremely comical like she was laughing with a bloated mouth. She calls me a scuba diver because of my specs (mind you, charlene ma'am says my specs look cool. hahaha someone appreciates my specs *spits tongue out*) and we call her a fish with big lips. Today was fun but tiring and i'm not done with my homework and ANY OF MY REVISION! die...

Learning journey pictures(don't remember where i went so don't ask)

looks like a dick... *censored*words written on our hands, mine was something like property of tan yeeling if found, return to anglican high school while yeeling's is 'wenjing's chicken pau. delicious. return to ahs canteen if lost'

doctor

I spent my entire morning travelling around Singapore, from Bedok to yishun, then to jurong east,jurong west and back to bedok again. Went to yishun to visit the doctor, for my back rash. Then the doctor said i've got low blood pressure. Don't bother since i'm not gonna die any time soon.
My mum was driving, and she got lost. So, we ended up in Jurong and i had lunch there with my parents. Fish ball noodles. The school canteen sells the noodles at a lower price and more ingredients. After that was travelling here and there, dropping my mum off at her childcare, then going to some inspection place to check the car or something. More waiting and finally, i'm back home. 2.33pm now. Nothing much i can do. Brought my maths file out but there were very little notes on probability. I feel like sleeping now.
Finished a liitle bit of revision for english literature yesterday, Geography and chinese zuo ye done. Now left maths, chinese and final checking for english lit.
Yesterday was 9/9/09 and i spent the last part of the day studying. :) Next next week is paper one and french oral, 30th September is french written paper eoy. It's really time to study. When is cca gonna stop? I dont even have enough time to do my own revision and there's still cca. I'm off to pack my cca stuff. Full guides u = polish badge, iron scarf

a new start

disappointing.hypocrite.insulting.unjust.hurt.sadness.expressionless.cruel.cheated.anger.unexpected.

''In life, what sometimes appear to be the end is really a new beginning''

It's time to move on. Leave behind all the unhappiness and forget about the past. Only remember the happy memories.


If you judge me by one person's point of view and not by my actual person, then you are not worthy to be my friend.

失望。。。

cut

Yeah, i injured myself again. I opened the fridge door and the glass just fell out and hit the floor. It broke into splinters and i got this cut. Well, at least i improved. I didn't fall down. It was the glass that fell. Hahahaha i'm finally not the fallen one.

Some people are just bloody irritating. Shout and shout that's all they can do. You are supposed to give others a chance and not raise your hands for everything. Do you have to be in the spot light for everything? What's your problem?

Just to vent my frustrations. Don't bother me. I'm going to cherish my one week of holidays, however short it may be. :)

朋友

朋友是什么？陪你度过酸甜苦辣，分享你的不愉快，聆听你的心事的人。许多所谓的朋友很多时候都只是生命里的过客，来了就走。只有与志同道合的好朋友的友谊才能长久吧！一段友谊，如果勉强维持的话，反而会越拖越辛苦。随着年龄的增长，遇到的人更是千遍一律。不再像以前那么的单纯。。。 如果没有相同的兴趣，共同的话题，过了一段日子，友谊也会变淡。不管以往有多么亲近，分开一段日子后，彼此间的距离依然会越隔越远。最后，就会忘了对方。这，也许就是人生吧！可悲啊！
一个人，怎么可以重视利益多过于朋友呢？真心，真的就那么难付出吗？不敏感，也是一种缺陷。大人的社会里因该会更乱吧！
所谓‘船到桥头自然直’走一步是一步，不管啦！

interview

The interview was fine, the two female teachers smiled a lot while the male was kind of expressionless. No weird questions were asked. Well, the only obstacle was probably that i took about 20 minutes looking for the interview place. Even though i was holding on to a map... And i made a new friend. She's annabelle from st nicholas and we were talking about all sorts of things. I may have scared her what with all the talks about toilets and stuff. She said my spectacles looks cool. :D haha someone appreciates it. Oh back to the toilet. We were discussing about the toilet conditions and how the water shoots out when you flush. Then, during the interview, the teacher said 'I see you've made friends with annabelle'
me: yeah
teacher: what did you talk about?
me: we talked a lot, from female toilets to male toilets
*thinks i am a weirdo expression
teacher: toilets?
me: yeah the condition of our toilets in school
*female teachers laughed
So, that was probably the most fun part. After that were more questions and i just kept talking. I may not have answered what they wanted but well, i talked so much i don't even remember their questions.
So i've found out something. Two years taking ALL subjects. Well i suppose it doesn't really matter if i do get in or not. Although it would be cool to be in the same class as annabelle... She seems quite nice, though she was a little too nervous before the interview. Ah well. That's something to worry later. As i say, there's always a tomorrow to start worrying. smiles:)

I'm not even sure of my next step. The future is full of uncertainty. Is that the best choice? Maybe not. Maybe.