In a few hours time, it'd be the end of 2009.
The start of 2010 awaits us.
I wouldn't say it's a good year.
But truth is, through this year, i've grown up.
I've learnt many lessons. Hurt but still, they are lessons. In life.
All in all, Goodbye, 2009.

goodbye, bobbie.

I went to dnt club's bbq yesterday. It was fun. :D We had this game that josie and gui er organized and it was really engaging, hitting the shuttlecock with anything that you got. I got a spoon and desiree got a hanger. It was hilarious while we tried to hit the shuttlecock with our 'utensils'. My spoon wasn't capable of hitting it back but i could only serve it. Whereas for Desiree, she had quite a great time with the hanger, managing to hit the shuttlecock back several times. After that Mr tay tried the hanger and it was pretty much of a failure while Paul hit back with his mini fan. It was like some chinese/ korean fan dance. That was hilarious.
After that was the bbq and quite a lot of talking and fooling around. Then, Desiree, Dionne, a girl whom i don't know the name and i were the last to leave as we were waiting for our parents to fetch. We talked while we waited and there were 2 packets of pringles (exotic flavours according to mr tay and they taste weird. Er i mean unique. Haha you get what i'm hinting) leftovers. We didn't know what to do with them as no one liked the flavours (which paul had mixed all the leftovers together into the 2 packets) and i gave it to the security guard on the way out. Alas! That settled the chips. :D
I woke up at 11 plus am today and was almost late for the movie Sherlock Holmes. I was to meet my new classmates in VJC at 1 20pm for the movie and i reached the mrt on time, but got lost and went the wrong direction. Luckily, a middle-aged man gave me directions when i asked him and i managed to make it there on time. I guess i should install some GPS or something in my phone. Sherlock Holmes was quite nice just that we got seats at the very front of the cinema and my neck ached while looking up to watch the screen and it was pretty uncomfortable. It was such a nice place to sleep but to not waste my money, i watched all the way through. It was awkward after the movie coz the gang of us didn't know what to do. In the end we ended up going home while Angela, Phoebe, Annabelle and probably Matthew walked to Orchard road from plaza singapura.

Haha i feel very proud of myself. I actually managed to find my way to the central library yesterday. And i wasn't really lost although i spent quite a lot of time looking for the maps and directories which i obviously found none that leads me to the library. Anyway, i asked this guy for directions and vague it may be, i found my way to the library. Mwahahaha. 厉害吧？Someone asked me for directions on the way and i'm as lost as she is so i couldn't point her the way. Do i even look like the kind of person with a good sense of direction? By the way, the central library is pretty cool and there are loads of books :D I had a great time reading. Someday i shall just go there for my reading sessions when i'm free.
I went to my aunt's house on 26th december. There was some sort of gathering with turkey and stuff, all the christmas food, and i almost got chased by the sickening dog. It licked my toe and as a result i hit the table, injuring my leg. In the end, i was avoiding the dog and walking away from him all along. (There'd be only bones left of me if i were to run.)  One good thing is that he didn't wait for me outside the toilet anymore. I was hunted down by him like some tasty meat the previous time. I'll never have dogs in my house. Just think of all the shit and saliva and you'll faint. Ewww.
I'll never make a loving, gentle, pet-loving girl. Though i'd much prefer horses to dogs.

Avatar is a very very very nice film. The director didn't fail everyone's expectations after his previous hit movie, titanic. The starting was kinda boring but gradually, it got really exciting and it triggers your emotions. If you watch the movie, you'd probably feel the same way as me and support the main lead (forgot name) in having a war against the humans. (Which is our own race) Humans' emotions vary and when one really becomes too ambitious and selfish, the outcome can be really terrifying. haha i guess that's just human nature. How pathetic it seems. It's worth your movie tickets so do catch it. :D Outliers isn't such a bad book after all, though i took like double the time to finish reading the book as compared to normal fiction books. But i've learnt much from the book so well, no regrets. There's one more book left to read and i've absolutely no idea where i should find it. Oh well, i'm happily spending my 'last days' reading books and guess what? I actually helped my grandma cook today. And i didn't ruin the kitchen. Wow. Plus it's edible. :D This time round, my brother has no choice but to eat the food that i cooked. Or he'll just have to starve. Mwahahaha. K so that's about it. Till something happens, i'll update my blog. Well, since it's pretty dead now maybe i'll consider closing it.

I've been hooked up on books recently. English, chinese and now, i'm starting on a non-fiction book about some story of success.(not that i want to read it, but i don't have a choice since its my homework) And i've so happily forgotten about my science and now i've got to read my textbook all over again. It's just a few more days, barely a month to school reopen and with all the festive season, i'm beginning to wonder whether i have prepared myself for the new year ahead already or is it that i haven't even prepared myself for it. I guess i'll just have to rush through all the homework and do all the necessary preperations before i face what lies ahead of me. No, i'm not gonna be freaked out by stress and since i chose this path, i shall walk down bravely. A few more years, i'd be able to break free and do what i really want to. I will be independant, i will depend on no one but myself and see how i fend. In a totally new world. Well, i'm gonna brace myself and when it's chinese new year, i may have to find myself some books from the library to last me through the boring hours of faking a smile to welcome relatives from all over Singapore. 4 more years. Doesn't seem too long huh? Well come to think of it, it's just 2 more years of science. Mwahahaha. Although there's always maths, but well, that's just school life. Cheers to my depleting days of holidays and freedom.

I found appelemando's dreams at last----children's edition. Full of pictures and not much substance. Just like some children's fairytales. -.-''' So now, i'm back to point one. I went to pasir ris library yesterday just to find that book and in the end it was of not much help. However, i did manage to find some other books to read, random ones, chosen because of the nice cover page. I just finished a chinese novel that i started reading yesterday evening, after borrowing it from the library and it was pretty nice. It was called 十七岁的法文课, lecon de dix sept ans, aka lesson at 17 years old. I kinda learnt a bit more french, and realised how not hardworking i had been, not being able to understand some of the french inside.
It's been a long time since i've visited anyone's blog and now that the holidays is coming to an end, i'm rather busy, rushing through lots of things. I guess i won't have the time to do blog hopping.

When the time comes, i'll summon my courage and bravely, with my head held high, i shall say goodbye to my past.

I went to Shenzhen with my cough, flu, sore throat medicine and came back with chinese herbs for my anemia and digestive system. Now is the slightly worse period of time for my anemia, when i'd feel giddy very easily. The physician also mentioned something about not being able to concentrate when studying because of my health problems. Headache now arghh.

back to singapore

HELLO EVERYONE I'm back!!! Yay! I love Singapore! Hong Kong is a very expensive place to shop and the people don't really speak chinese. I did a lot of walking with my family, taking the MTR and stuff. It was extremely infuriating, coz that brother of mine made us walk for like hours just to find his stuff and in the end his things were not found and my soles hurt like hell, forming blisters and all. Don't buy china shoes. They have very little cushion and made my legs hurt so much. Shenzhen was a very scary place. Really. The sales people would just follow you in the shop. There was this guy who was following behind me all along, in the end i started running in the shop and he chased after me, sticking close to my butt. Extremely uncomfortable. And if you don't want to buy their things, they will shout after you and in a way order you to go back. They were all very fierce. And there were beggers everywhere. I bet there were pickpockets everywhere. And they work in groups. While i was shopping, i noticed some males (young men) staring at me and when i start walking to another place, they'd pick up their phone and call someone. It makes me feel really uncomfortable. No sense of security. Sends shivers down my spine. EWWW. The people there spit phlegm everywhere. And i really mean everywhere. On the pavements where you walk, in the shopping centre, DISGUSTING. You walk on the road, it's wet. But it's not only the rain. It's mixed with their phlegm. GROSS. Things may be cheaper there but the quality is quite horrible and they cheat your money. You have to bargain but when you do so, be thick skinned. If not you'll be frightened by them. And i really mean it. They are FIERCE. Scary place. I wouldn't want to go back there again. Singapore is the best. Even though the weather there is nice and cooling, Singapore is still the best.

I'll be leaving to shenzhen and Hong Kong this sunday, till 10 December. So, if you do not mind paying extra cash, feel free to sms or call me. :D

LG viewty smart

Yes, i'm still sick. With the usual sore throat and the sickening cough. However, there's one thing to be happy about and that is that i've changed my phone!!! LG viewty smart. 8mp and touch screen. It's cool. :D Unlimited sms now so feel free to spam me! :)

Let's do a quiz. Flu, cough and sore throat. Which one costs you most?

Answer: flu
Why?
1) You need to buy lots and lots of tissue
2) At night, you'll most probably have blocked nose, which means more money spent on medicine such as the vicks inhaler
3) You can't have a good night's sleep and you won't have the energy the next day
4) You feel as if you can't breathe throughout the day when your blocked nose comes back to you whenever you settle down at one place

Hence, be it a sore throat or a fever, do not catch a flu because the consequences are dire. I HATE BEING SICK!!!

SICK

That's it. Sore throat, cough, flu, block nose. I can't even sleep well when i feel as if i can't breathe at all with my irritating block nose. I'm feeling very sick and tired now. Medicine tastes like shit. Especially the cough syrup. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI FANG!!!
After the present and the very expensive meal at pizza hut, i'm broke. Hence, i can't afford to go to any restaurant meals from now on. How i wish i'd fall sick after my overseas trip and not a few days before... :(

My sore throat is getting more and more horrible with every second that passed. I have a little block nose and cough as well. Climbing up and down the stairs just make my body ache more and with every step, i'd feel excruciating pain throughout my legs. My holidays are ruined. It's like living in hell and i can't even sleep well. Anyone knows any sort of remedies to cure my sore throat before it gets worse?

annual hike '09

My muscles ache from waist to feet and to top it all, i've got a horrible sore throat. I can barely walk without feeling pain at my soles and my hips and my throat seems to be burning. I'm surprised that i'm not down with a fever though.
So, yesterday was annual hike. Halfway through, i totally regretted going back for it. With a sore throat, i went to school, climbed up the hill, which i thought i would never have to climb again :( and joined them for the annual hike. Flowerpecker and shark grouped and we were the second last to set off, with our trail one of the longest. Then, we set off and the scouts weren't very cooperative, walking way behind us. So, we went up the MRT and started to plot our routes. And when we set off to our second check point, the scouts were leading and they were finally speeding up. But, they didn't bother to wait for us guides and i went on to hold on to their bags. There were three of them, this yishun guy or yushun (aiya no idea how to spell) will just run off when i hold on to his bag and i would have no choice but to let go. The second, Daniel, would just follow yushun and run, totally ignoring my survival. Finally, the last one, the one and only sec 2 scout in the patrol, was kind enough to let me hold on to his bag and he didn't run like the others. Although i may have spoilt his bag, but well, that's just his luck. :P Anyway, we walked for like 21 kilometres, which seriously sucks. We even had to climb up this hill to hort park. And the hill is definitely way higher than Anglican high's hill. By then, i was almost dead and my legs hurt like hell. After that was another long journey to istana park, (at least 5 MRT stations away AT LEAST) and Denise and i led the way. YAY! Although Denise was the one leading mostly... (Wonder what will happen to me without her; we'd probably not complete the hike) And finally, i was actually at the front when it was the last 1/3 of the journey to istana park. And i practically ran and shouted when i saw the words 'Istana park'. By then, my legs were like breaking and the skin at the back of my left foot tore, leaving blood stains on my sock. And the scouts refused to navigate, so Denise and i made our way to Mc Donald house with the others following behind. Then, we went to Dhoby Ghout MRT which was far far away. I think we were at Tanjong pagar MRT then. No idea. The fatigue made me forget everything. Denise and i were at the front, walking like no mother hell, going all the way straight even though our legs were like in extreme pain. While the scouts followed behind chatting about computer games. Anyway, after what seems like everlasting torture, we finally reached and all of us just fell onto the floor to sit down. We were kinda pathetic, sitting down on any floor whenever the traffic light turns red. Our legs hurt so much that we couldn't even bring ourselves to laugh when we saw this green man and red man in the traffic light tilted. It wasn't straight but in a diagonal position. And after that, we still HAD TO WALK and we set off to city hall. By now, the scouts were at the front and i was collapsing at the back with April. We couldn't walk anymore and kinda dragged our feets along. This year's hike was like so much worse than last year's. As in SERIOUSLY. Last year's route was like one of the shortest and this year's was one of the longest. And in the end i was like the last one at the back. We finally reached and we were the sixth to reach. Which means, last 3. To think we walked like hell. OK. So that was hike. And i had to leave early so i didn't get to see Cui wen's patrol come back.
After i left the group of guides, i went home to shower (and i could barely climb the stairs up). Then. headed to Aranda country club, where the VJC seniors organized a bbq. The place is very beautiful, much nicer than all the previous chalets. The seniors were pretty nice. A group of 10v13 classmates including me, sat near the bbq pit and the grand seniors came to join us, talked to us and stuff. They were very enthusiastic and talked a lot. Seems like they've been through really fun times. And i've learnt more about vjc through them. They said things like how they hear this senior (indian guy) scream in the cinema when watching a horror movie. And this senior who shouted 'no, no, no' when he/she saw the sex scene or something from this movie at the start. It was hilarious. And their plans on drilling a hole on their classroom floor so that they can slide down to our classroom like firemen. Then something about what if the teachers fell in and we laughed all the way. Too bad i wasn't feeling well with my terrible sore throat, so i didn't talk much. In all, i didn't regret going to the bbq with my about-to-break legs and a burning throat.
After shouting at the scouts for the whole day yesterday, from 9 20 am to 4 30 pm, i don't think i have the voice to talk anymore. My dad was talking to me a moment ago and i could barely speak. It's time to fall sick man.

Tears are of no use. So what if you give your all for a friendship and in the end, get nothing but betrayal? No one will feel sad at all. There will only be me stuck in the sorrow. Everyone moves on. Without even feeling anything. So what's the point of thinking about it and getting myself hurt once and again as the reality strikes me? Some things are better left this way. I shan't think about it anymore. I hope.

Why do you have to break your promise? Do you even cherish our friendship? You went back on your words. There's nothing i can say.
My heart is crying. No point lying to myself any futher. The fact is undeniable.

More studying to go

My mum promised to fix me an aircon next year. YAY! I'm currently stuck with chemistry, in the second or third chapter and i haven't even start on physics. HAIX. Way to go, Wen Jing! My tuition's tomorrow and mum's going to Expo in the morning (i'm following her) to get the broadband stuff. Starhub internet sucks. I heard they'd be giving a free laptop. It's damn cool coz it's the kind of screen that can turn 360 degrees. But i heard my mum's letting my brother use it. So, i'm back to point one, stuck with this laptop that i have to share with my dad. :( But it's ok, coz someday, i'm gonna get my OWN laptop. =) It's always good to stay positive. I went to bed at 9+ yesterday and slept at 1. Insomia sucks.
Sometimes, it's not enough to just be decisive. You need to let go of certain things as well to forget the past. Things are interlinked. Certain people just brings back the memories, no matter how much you want to forget.

6 chapters to finish reading before Sunday's tuition. I've finished 1 chemistry chapter and wrapped most of my books. Still a lot more chapters to go. And i'd be starting on maths soon. Haix. I'm dead soon. I'd be going for annual hike next week so, see ya!

No one tags anymore... :( Holidays are kinda boring. If no one tags, i think i shall cut down on the number of times i blog till like next year? Alright. For now, movie first, studies after that. :D

I went to white sands at noon today, met up with yeeling and took neoprints. That was the worst neoprints that we ever had, i think and it was our first only two of us neoprints. We were like pressing random things and in the end had some sushi background and ended up at the wrong place. It was hilarious. After that, we didn't even manage to finish drawing and it was time's up. We were like 'huh?' Hopeless. What can two sotongs come up with anyway? Had Mc chicken burger after that. (Coz yeeling didn't have enough money) And we spent like an hour taking bus 12 to my house from pasir ris. A lot of crap on the way and we were supposed to study at my house but ended up eating junk food and talking. Absolutely no mood to study. Physics and chemistry to read. Life sucks. Tomorrow will be going to yeeling's house trying to study again, thursday going out with li fang and evan (Cui Wen still didn't reply me. Has that banana been mashed? TAN CUI WEN REPLY ME ASAP!) Friday will be going back for dnt club. I'm free on Saturday. Provided that i don't have tuition. Except for 24 and 25, i'd be free next week. Anyone wants to go out? :D

Alright. I woke up at 12 30pm. I was on msn conversing with vjc seniors and few of my classmates (though most left the convo) Haha interesting people. We chatted till like 12am++ In the end, i left the convo and went to sleep. Mass convo makes you catch no balls. Shit. I haven't do my physics assesment. Tuition tomorrow. By the way, next week shall be my last free week. After that i'll really start studying and reading my books. Way to go! Yawns...

last guides campfire

Alright. I just came back from campfire. There were its fun moments but i think i still prefered last year's. Maybe it's because of yijing ma'am and suan ching ma'am's cool 'break dancing', or maybe it's the music that kept our spirits high. Or perhaps it's just because i'm not in any patrol hence not participating in any skit. Even the level item i had no idea what they were going to do. Felt quite extra, neither here nor there. There were moments when i felt a little sour deep inside. Like when i saw annabella blowing into the campfire, i thought of outdoor cooking with cecilia ma'am and fp, what with all the 'my next blowing successor' and stuff. I'll miss those days... Everyone's shoes were dirty and muddy. I bet they had hell. Anyway, tomorrow will be break camp so i bet they'll go home to hibernate. Well, congratulations to them for graduating from annual camp at camp christine without dying. 3 casualties so far but i'm sure that the others can pull through. Cheers!

Give more than you receive

''Give more than you receive''

Well, that's what i learnt from today's vjc speech. Some Alexandra (not sure of spelling) hospital CEO gave a speech and though i was sleepy from the lack of sleep (considering that i fell asleep at 12 and woke up at 8 30), i persevered through and didn't wander into dream land. The talk was quite inspiratonal, makes you think of things that you should improve on and to change your perspctive. Being open minded is something that we should all learn.

''Some people come for advice just to want someone to confirm their thoughts. There's a block there and it's no point talking to them.''

When Lee Kuan Yew ask Raffles' students to jump, they say 'how high?' When he ask ACJC, they say 'why should i?' when he ask vjc, they say 'you jump yourself'

Those above were shared by the ceo. Meaningful. Although the second was more of a joke. Anyway, today was fairly enjoyable. And i found out that to get into drama, you don't need to go for auditions. Cool. There was this senior who's in drama and he cleared my doubts. I think i'll be going for one cca only, considering my tuition, third language and all the homework. Due to time constrain, i suppose that's it. Until i manage to find time, i'll consider another cca. And there are a few seniors learning french but they don't seem to go for lessons now. I do hope that i'll get some tuition from them. :D Alright i got to go. Get my bro's stuff in Orchard. I don't want to be stuck at home so i'm tagging along. Cheers!

introduction to victoria integrated programme

This trip to VJC costed me (er i mean my mum) nearly $500. Uniform, textbooks. There's a vjc jacket (damn cool whoots!) and a black tee that we can wear every wednesday. I'm getting them tomorrow. :D Every Friday is tie day. All have to wear tie. But i don't know how to tie... :P And the textbooks were like one whole big chunk and i really mean ONE BIG CHUNK. The textbooks are like all so thick and lots of science text. Geography and English Literature (if i'm not wrong) next year. For IP2 it would be economics and history. (that would be hell i heard) And one of the seniors said that he gets to sleep at 1am every night (or is it morning?) So i'm getting all the sleep i can get this holiday. And that's damn lot of things to read through before school starts. Haix.
Anyway, my class seems damn cool. First was taking attendance, which i then realise that i had to register. :O In the end, the teacher was saying that wen jing is not here and my new made friends were like 'no she's here' and the teacher went on saying that i had to register and i was like 'huh? we had to register?' Embarrassing!!! I heard some people laughing...And i totally didn't realise that i had to do so. We had games after that, organised by the seniors. They were all damn cool and nice. Talked to us and stuff. I had their phone numbers but i don't know who they are. Oops. :P Anyway, games were fun. It was just simple games but still very enjoyable. Met some really nice people. In a whole, i think my new classmates are all damn nice. :D Some of them are shy, some confident. In all, they seem very friendly. :) By the way, i saw Annabelle and made friends with her fellow St nic's girls. They were all nice. There were Angela and Jamie. Easy going. Met a primary school classmate, ze xuan. He seems to have changed quite a lot. Not appearance but more of personality. Seems more polite and humble. I suppose everyone do change. :D Come to think of it, i can't possibly judge him by his P1 or P6 self since he's still considered young and so was i. This would be a whole new start then. :D There's also this guy called Matthew (one of the few names i remember) We played this game and i happened to sit beside him. So he asked me for my name (trying to make friends) and i kinda remembered his name coz it was called out lots of times during the game. And another guy called Mark but i don't remember what he looked like. They all seem quite nice though. And girls overpower guys. YAY! 59 percent girls 41percent boys in the whole level. And even in my class, there are more girls than boys. I'm beginning to look forward to the new year. And i'm a little excited now. :D My classroom should be on the third floor. (Much better than 5th floor) And the maximum is 3 floors. So, Mwahahaha farewell, AHS stairs! No more 长城, 5th floor or hill.

in need of help

Anyone good in computer? My dad can't log on to his account and it states user profile service has failed to log you in. So, how do i fix it? If i don't get this settled soon enough, my dad's gonnna kill me. Anyone please?

仙剑奇侠传3

I finished watching 仙剑奇侠传3. Quite nice. Though i still prefer the first coz the clothes are nicer and the story better. Anyway, both shows have very nice music. :D Someday when i have the money i'll go buy the album. *I haven't receive the money that my chinese compostitions earned, hence i'm broke*

IP1

I've received email on the information of my class next year. Gracia's in the same class as me. And so is Annabelle. :D Guess what? I'm the only one in the whole level learning french... *shouts 'WHY?' in my mind* Cheryline's not in the same class as me. :( The booklist was full of books and they are all EXPENSIVE. Friday will be talks and meeting of new class cum buying of uniform. I'm experiencing a bit of the 'new school atmosphere'. A little bit nervous and excited. As for the discovery magazine, i suppose my mum's paying for it. (Well, according to her tone it seems so.) There seems to be quite a lot of vietnamese and PRCs. 2 Eurasians in the whole level, none in my class. *disappointed look* By the way, previously i went to the website of Switzerland hospitality and management university and requested them to send me the details of the school. Ever since then, i received emails of when there'd be seminars about the school. I didn't go for any and the person in charge sent me an email asking if i'm still interested. I said i am and told her my age and that i'm too young and asked if there're scholarships to get into the university. She replied that there isn't any provided by the university but that salary can be earned when we go for practical training. So, i guess i'd have to start saving from now on. D: I think i should really start preparing for the new year. Once i get my textbooks, i'd most probably have to start reading so, i guess there won't be much time left to go out or whatsoever. As for dnt club, i can't promise anything. Toast to a new start! A bientot! (Pardon for the missing accents.)

payment again D:

I just received a bill of $79 by discovery channel magazine when i supposedly have paid the full amount last year when the group of people came to sell this magazine. Unless they gave the extra copies and now they ask for the money. Money-suckers. Recently was phone bill now, some i**** magazine. *curses under breath* MONEY!

tears...at last

Yesterday was dinner at changi airport. Nice food and very filling. We fetched my dad (he just came back to singapore) spent half the time looking for the restaurant, then looking for our car. Heard my mum complain about all the stairs and stuff. Then, my brother's friends came over to stay overnight and watched soccer. Heard them shout 'goal!' and so on throughout the night. Tres bruyant. In the end, i watched my show till late at night and i went to bed. However, i did not fall asleep and i ended up thinking of my memoirs in guides. And, i actually cried. But i first started crying because of my sec 4 seniors and not those still in the cca. And once i start, i couldn't stop. It lasted for about 20 minutes i suppose. Because of the sudden 灵感，i started writing 作文 till 2am+ before i went to bed. So now, i'm feeling very tired but i can't sleep.

I've not touched my assesment book at all and i'm supposed to finish it by 11am tomorrow. D: I went to singapore expo today, fetched my grandparents to watch some opera, then went to the robinson's sale with my mum. We seperated many times, ending up with me calling her coz i wanted to buy some stuff. And i got my bag! A bit expensive though, about $50. But it has lots of functions and my books won't get wet if it rains. Mum's trying to make goreng pisang. Hope its edible. cheers :)

xbox 360

Today's my brother's birthday. He's officially a 16 year old. Yesterday night we were playing his xbox 360 or something. First was some japanese cum chinese ancient war game with all the super powers. Then, he played some second world war game and it was extremely creepy. M18 or something. My dad bought for him. Introduction was some Japanese killing. I hid behind the blanket while he just laughed at me. Disgusting game. Forced by him to play, i didn't want to and i led my soldier to some forest and hid among the bushes while he fought at some other place. Then, i went on to 'play' with the water, looking underwater and trying to kill myself. But i wasn't drowned. Finally, he gave in to me and changed the game---to soccer. I didn't know how to play at all and my players were all sliding here and there tripping over themselves. In the end the score was me 0 brother 5. We played till 1am. It was tiring and in the end, i pointed at the score, turned to him, and said that's your present. Happy Birthday. And i went to sleep.
I intended to make him a cake, so i asked : Do you want to eat cake? And he replied, ''You want to make me one right? NO.''
Look down on me...

few more days to a busy week...

I wonder when Mr tay is going to treat me and yeeling. I've a feeling that holidays will soon be over with a flash and all that i intended to do will be left undone. Things aren't as perfect as you imagined it to be. This is life, i guess. Today was nothing much, a group of guys coming over (brother's friends) and making a great deal of noise. I heard them saying things like 'Eh you never told me you had a sister.' and bla bla bla. They still have one paper left, some mcq or something and they're already playing now. Anyway, he was kind enough to help me feed the fishes. So he's forgiven for all the racket. :) Currently enjoying every free moment i've got till my tuition starts to flood me with homework and overwhelming things to learn. Currently wondering whether or not to go for class chalet. I'm free now, extremely. So, anyone want to go out just leave me a tag. :)

child care centre

I'm at my mum's child care centre now. I was taking photos of the children earlier on and the kids were extremely excited. One of them even started talking to me in tamil which i understand nothing and he just laughed at me. -_- Currently trying to settle my video problems. Peace at last coz the children are sleeping.

tuition starts

My first session of tuition for the holidays. I almost fell asleep. Chemistry now, Physics on sunday. I guess i'd have to start studying hard now. No more part time jobs coz i wouldn't have the time for it. Oh well. More compositions to write and i've to accompany my mum to her childcare. I AM GONNA BE BUSY.
My dad went overseas and he told me to take care of his fishes for these 5 days. I told him that his fishes will die if i were to take care of them but he refused to listen to me. And well, i kinda forgot about those fishes in the morning but i guess they'd do fine without breakfast. :D Anyway, i fed them just now so they should still be alive. As for dinner, that would depend on my memory. Good luck man, fishes. *innocent smiles at fishes*

tempted to buy books...

I saw the books 'quidditch through the ages' and 'fantastic beasts and where to find them' by jk rowling in a bookshop in tampines one! I've been looking for them for ages and now, i've got no money to buy them :(
Holidays are sad when you don't have money. Really sad.

headphones

I want a headphone! Earpiece is very ticklish and now my ear feels weird... My birthday's in February. *hint hint* anyone wants to get me one? If not there's always christmas. Or a farewell present? *smiles*

I'm going back for dnt club tomorrow. So if anyone wants to meet me there, i'd be there at 11am.

Leaving

It was halloween yesterday. I saw a family wearing those fancy costumes visiting a house nearby. Yet, i never once celebrate halloween. Someday. Someday i'll get the chance to do so. :D
I've been thinking a lot recently. Whenever i look back, all i remember of ahs were unhappy memories. And now, i finally realise something. That i'm really leaving AHS already, that i may not even see some of my friends anymore, that my final goodbye to them seems so meaningless. I wrote cards, but who will cherish it? Even if they kept it, they would have a little bit memory of me. But for me, i would most probably forget about them since most of them didn't bother to make me a card or even a small message at all. Perhaps i just mean nothing to them, a passer by in their life. That's reality, huh?

letting go

Alright. The previous post was just me venting my frustrations. There is no right or wrong i just wanted to clarify. I don't want to be misunderstood once and again. 2 years of life in ahs and 2 years being wronged. Haix. I'm totally letting go of the past now.

a failed friendship

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Carmen, friendship through moulding yourself to fit in isn't friendship. It's like a jigsaw. If you can't fit in, you just can't. You can't force the pieces to be joined. Even if you can, it's still wrong. After all, they weren't meant to be.
You're fine just by yourself.
You see, I have to understand this sometime or another.
I'm so sick and tired of this problem, since I've been forced to talk about it non-stop for the past 48 hours. I've been thinking and worrying over it for months it was such a depressing period for me and u got it over within 48 hours well yeah that's so great of u. And well you are FORCED to think about it whereas i had no choice but to be stuck with the problem for months
I'm just asking you politely and nicely, please read this, on my behalf, and realise the problem does not lie with our project work. Our project work isn't the one breaking friendships up. project work is the one that made us realise what's wrong with each other, our bad and our good (if there ever were)
And I'm not hinting annoyance or anything, but I'd be lying blatantly to say I don't feel anything about it.
Friends are there for you when you need them. so our friendship never meant anything to you. it comes and go just like some hi bye friends then i'm sad to say that i've wasted all the time with u
Have you ever been there for me? All you think of my problems is that it's no big deal. You brush them away. i did my best to help u with your problems. Because of your dnt project, i have to stop what i'm doing and go all the way up to the 4th floor just to meet you online and comment on your work and if this is what u think, there's nothing i can say i did my best aleady
But when you need help, well, that's a totally different matter. You get to me quicker than the speed of light, you do. if u realise, i don't go to you for help most of the time coz i know u can't be of much help and also, i have other friends whom i find it easier to approach
But that's the only time you ever bother listening.
It's cool. After all, friends to you are those who listen only to YOUR problems. So it's okay if you don't listen to mine. is your memory failing you? i did listened to your problems and well u prefer to tell it to someone else and not me so i don't know what happened and you blame me for that?
Is that so?
Friends should learn to accept my negative points. I've tried accepting yours. You insult, you make fun of me, i tolerated all coz i know it's just your way of communicating. For months i said nothing and you never once apologized for it. I don't expect you to say sorry anyway but seriously, everyday i go to school just to hear u saying stuff like your big nostrils; i'm so pretty and you're so ugly. i go home, force myself to forget everything and the cycle continues the next day 
No one is perfect. (After all, life would be boring if everyone were.) But then again, yes, it's true, our bad points irk us every once in a while. Hey, take it from your self-confessed perfectionist, yours truly, it's true.
But what is our negative point?
Is it my negative point because I'm more studious, and your life is more carefree? you don't even know me well. you think that just because i joke around my life is carefree? i joke to make those around me laugh to lighten the atmosphere and sometimes i can even make fun of myself to make those around me happy. it may appear to be carefree but you never saw what lies beneath. If i were to be so serious, i wouldn't even be able to survive at all with all my commitments
Is it my negative point that I tend to try to make our project works more perfect if we have the ability to, but you feel that your duty is done once you complete merely your part? u can call me at night, when i'm walking home from third lang in the dark and call me to go online IMMEDIATELY and i have to comply u. u make all these unreasonable requests and i tried my best i have my life and i'm busy. I need rest too and you deprive me of that just because you want it perfect.
Well, I can't answer these questions, since it's subjective.
And so, is it the project's fault we're having differences on how we view our projects? That's why I'm so passionate about this. Your actions in a project don't affect just you, it affects the whole team. So why are people blaming the project? we shouldn't even have worked together fom the start u realised if i hadn't controlled myself i would have yelled at you ages ago?
Is it my negative point that I get worked up when I spend half an hour trying to coax you to cooperate with us and work on our PW food packaging? I was trying to get you to please forget about your goddamn french test and think about the three other people standing there, trying our best to make the project work. We wanted to get good marks, not for the perfectionist, no, but for everyone in the group. And remember that he has NCC. I have Council. She has NPCC. You're not the only busy one.i remember that hsin ning and guang jun are much more free than i am. i have french and guides, because of the packaging i spent the whole day doing it and didn't even get to prepare for my french test at all. next day u just tell me that you don't like it and u dont use my packaging at all. i did all i could to prevent myself from going berserk and because of the project that we're working on, I AM NOT SHOUTING AT YOU
Just try to understand, this isn't my fault that I got so stressed out trying to make things work because the group couldn't make any decisions fairly without your opinion first.
I understand if you were tired. But we all are. Even when I'm tired, like when I came back from the sec 1 camp, having gone more than 2 days without 5 hours of sleep combined, I still respond to people. And why is that? Because I know when people talk to me, they are seeking a response. It isn't fair to them if I just block them out like that. That would be wrong on my part.i don't respond because i hate talking to you. it's really irritating to hear your voice sometimes.
Do you get how hard it is to deal with someone like that? I think I've offended you, since you're blatantly ignoring us, but I don't know what I did. And it used to hurt, till I got over it now.you made fun of me spit water and chased me i told u to stop but u never did. u said that you'll stop when i tell you to but did u? u never did. thus i ignored u, spent the whole day calming myself down, forgot about all by the next day and there u are, insulting me all over again when u didn't even apologize at all
I know you're busy, and I feel your pain for that. But do you honestly know how much I go through?
And I know you think I'm some star of a freakshow because I want to get the best marks I can, and excel in Council at the same time.
Let me show you how much the freak does, okay?
You tried (if you even tried) editing the Victory diary, right? (C'mon. You made a comment. That's not editing.) And you made our elit powerpoint, right?
Well I did the Victory diary entry.
I did the cover.
I did the powerpoint.
I bothered bringing the powerpoint.
I wrote our skit's script.
I organised the props.
I initiated everything.
I edited your powerpoint, and put in the subtitles we needed.
So if you're tired, just think how much more tired I am. I have a lot of commitments too, just like you.i know you did a lot but did u even give others the chance to do it? u always inform at the very last minute and reject all that we did in the end. i'm sick and tired of it that's why i can't be bothered anymore. i hate it to work with u
Besides, if you were really my friend, you would try talking it out, at the very least.it took me so long to realise you're not worth to be my friend
It's sad to say, I failed to converse with you about this topic, and I regret this. Because you were as enthusiastic as a laying log.u were the one who did me wrong at first and while u continue your life ever so happily and i go on my own way, alone in class trying to figure out what next u, say i should talk to you when u didn't even initiate it. u just ignored me and continued playing
But project works isn't breaking us apart, it's us.
And consider that maybe, just maybe, it's not me, it's you.
I'm not saying I'm totally 100% innocent here, because maybe I pushed too hard, but no one said anything, so it's my bad for that.
But honestly, woman. What do you want me to do if you won't even TALK?you want me to talk and shout at you? i wanted to end all of these quietly yet u had to hurt me with this post
Yeah, it is. It is impossible.
I've been trying so hard since I genuinely thought I'm supposed to let you know about this issue, as a friend. But it kinda didn't work out that way, so, I'm moving on.
I don't have much time for this shit. If we talked nothing would have happened. It looks like it's too late, so I'm gone.nope if we had talked, we would just totally ignore each other. now you're acting as if nothing happened between us at all but, i can't. u just make me feel that you're a hypocrite.
I'm strong on the surface,

Not all the way through.

I've never been perfect,

But neither have you.i know i'm not perfect but things just can't wok out between us so why can't u just let go?
- by caaaarmen(: ranting halted at 9:08 PM Comments
yeah that's it. a failed friendship and all that was bottled up in me is finally vented out. we owe each other nothing now and i am glad to say from now on, i shall forget about you. i intended to be just normal friends with you but your insults and posts just hurt me so much that i don't think you're worthy to be one. You ended all these yourself and my sec 2 life had been half-ruined because of you. You're an eye-opener and that i'm glad to know you nevertheless. I never knew i had such high tolerance level. Now when i look back at ahs, all i think about is what happened in this school, all the depressing times. I am telling all those out there reading, my friendship with her can never be repaired. i feel like i've always been her toy, to bully. She never treated you like that and trust me. No matter how much she made fun of u, she still made cards and notes for u, treated u as a true friend. but she never did to me. that's the difference and i am not saying that u can't be friends with her. i can't order u but all i want to let u know is that u cant have two best friends. ultimately u will lose one. as long as she's still there, we will still be affected. I don't know if everything on your blog is your heartfelt words but all i can say is that i don't know what you are thinkng. whenever u laugh and joke around with her, i don't know if she means more to you and i really did consider giving up. it's tiring, to not be able to talk to you whenever she's around and all the hiding. i know you're sick and tired of this topic but i just have to be sure of what you're thinking. if this isn't solved, i fear that one day we'll just become strangers.

Last day of school in anglican high

Nope. I didn't cry. No hint of sadness either. Don't know what's happening to me. I was touched by some notes, but the 'i won't get to see them again' thought just didn't dawn on me and no tears managed to squeeze its way out of my eyes. Pathetic, isn't it? Anyway, i left the school, heads held high, and i never looked back. Took lots of pictures but no tinge of sadness. I felt no particular emotions. After that, i went to tampines mall with Evan, Li fang and meredith. Meredith told me that she will treat me to a meal when she gets her first work pay. And she shall keep her promise. Everyone seems very tired today and we were like doing nothing much in particular, went pizza hut, had lunch (almost puked my pizza out---i was the last to finish the food coz i drank two cups of pepsi) Lastly, all i can say is that the best thing that i had in pizza hut was the pepsi.
there was a subject combination talk and mr yeow announced 21 people going ip and he had this very unique way of ending our sec 2 year--by eating lollipops all at the same time. teachers and students, few hundreds of people, popped the lollipop into our mouths at the same second. looked like nursery kids. hilarious. guangjun said that i spelt prostitute wrongly in his card (spelt as prostitude) and the guys were joking how i was going to go ip when i can't even spell it correctly. Didn't know they knew that word so clearly...
Maybe i'll just buy a photo album that costs $7+ to record all that i've been through in AHS... Pathetic how little messages i've got. I guess this marks the end of my life in ahs. To those still staying, jiayou and all the best!
photos of the day!!!

official last guides activity

Today is my last guides act. Yunjin and rachel, both going ip as well, cried. But i didn't. I'm still rather bewildered as to why i didn't cry, nor feel sad at all. Is it because i know i'd still be seeing them? Or that i have no feelings at all? I don't know.
Just before guides ended, Charlene ma'am and Yingyan ma'am announced that 3 guides will be leaving for ip and said some very touching stuff. It was like a mini 'farewell'. I was touched but i controlled my tears. Then, Annabella and maggie came forward to say their messages and i was really very touched. But when annabella mentioned 'she's always so random and lame and crazy over her husband bob, which is actually a pendulum bob...' I was just smiling. I felt a bit bitter inside but not to the point that i'd cry. My junior, vivian cried because of me... I didn't feel much. I don't know why. It may be my last official guides act but i don't seem to feel so. Or is it that i haven't really accepted the fact that i'm leaving already? It's not like i'll never come back... I hope i'd cry tomorrow. Or it'll be as though i've no feelings at all. Maybe there'd still be something in this school that's worth crying for...

Whoots!

I'm happy today. :D Annabelle got into VJC as well!!! Haha i've got another friend there already. Gosh i'm so happy. By the way, she's the girl whom i met at the interview. I remember her name but i hope that i'd be able to recognise her... HAHAHA. I hope we'd be in the same class. :) smiles!

black jacket

I went shopping with my mum at tampines today and i finally got my jacket. :D The clothes in shopping mall are expensive. The winter clothing are nice and stylish. However, the prices are equally 'pretty'. Back to school tomorrow... :( And i've got cookies sale duty again. I hope we are able to sell all the cookies... And someone hasn't paid me the cookie money. If he isn't paying, i'm getting the money from his father. Don't think that just because i'm a girl you can bully me.  5 more days to holidays and 22 more days to my official full stop of my guides journey...

Concert day

Today is a saturday yet i didn't get to sleep till late in the afternoon. :( Because of my mum's concert, i had to wake up early and being a good girl, of course i would agree to help... Heehee. In the auditorium of singapore polytechnic, the concert was held. It was such a wonderful day to sleep and there i was, watching children dancing around and adjusting the spotlight... It seems meaningless as the performance was not very touching or anything (what can you expect from a bunch of little kids?) There was this boy who tried to kiss a girl on the stage. It looked er -_-''' After that was buffet. The food was ok and er very filling. :) After that, slept on the car and went parkway. To buy my brother's clothes. He was extremely fussy and i spent hours waiting for my mum to finish choosing. Tired and angry coz it was a wasted trip, bored to death when my mum was busy fussing aroung his clothes, without finding any, i almost shouted into the phone. But, my high self-tolerance managed to keep me under control. *proud looks* And that ends my day. Today is a total waste of time. I could have watched 5 movies or read half a chinese novel... Never mind. I'm being nice today so i shan't be bothered by this day. I shall forget about it... It's 9 43pm and i've decided to go to rest. Nights!

some things just cannot be forced

Sometimes, it's good to not get too close. There will never be enemies, nor someone whom you hate forever. As time passes, the emotions you experienced will no longer be as strong and gradually, you will forget about everything. But, when forced by circumstances at certain points of time, you work together with these people and just realise that you can't get along with them. You may not feel anything when you aren't that close to that person, or that you barely talk to the person. However, the holes in the friedship will only prove that you can't get along well with that person. The holes will always be there. It's just a matter of whether or not you feel it, you see it.
As what Mr Tay said,

“勉强是不会有幸福的。”

This year had been really, really tiring. A failed friendship, injuries, lost, misunderstandings, disappointment... So many, so many things. I need a break and perhaps leaving is the best choice that i have.
Once you've fallen down, the experience would be like a shadow that follows you, that haunts you down. At the very first point, you may not feel anything, just worried. People said that my tooth could be glued back, but it was not the case. The fall meant nothing. The pain was not that horrible. I could take it. I wasn't afraid of it. But just very worried for the lost of my tooth. When the dentist said that a fake one could be fixed back, i was relieved, not even bothering to think about it anymore. As long as there is a tooth there, it doesn't mater at all. However, the disappointment in my mother, for she was very proud of my neat set of teeth, and the after-effects of having a fake tooth and all that i have to take note of, it just hammers into my head the fact of the lost forever. To others, it may mean nothing since it looked exactly like real, but who would know the phobia implanted in my mind? The lost struck me as painfully as a lightning would have strucked a person. Running, walking, climbing down the stairs, playing ball games... All these things may seem like small insignificant things, but to me, i keep having flashbacks of the fall. Not the pain but the feeling of my tooth broken into half when my face hit the floor. I could taste blood, feel my half broken tooth resting on my tongue. I don't dare. I'm afraid. After so much warnings from parents and dentist, i don't want to fall again. I don't want the whole nightmare to happen all over again. The emotional stress is too much for me. It may all be destined, but there's always the phobia that follows me. Flossing my teeth everyday, food getting stuck at my fake tooth, unable to munch on harder food properly, even eating bread can be troublesome at times. If you don't experience it yourself, you wouldn't know how i felt. Some may say i'm over-reacting, but i just can't afford anything to happen again. I used to think that breaking of my tooth would never ever happen to me but what happens in the end? There is never a 'never'. Anything can happen. Being very cautious is the only thing that i can do to protect myself. The older you are, the clearer the memory stays in your mind. There's no way to erase it away. It stays as vividly as it happened.
This is most probably the start of a nightmare. A heart-breaking, tiring year. How i wish all these can end...quickly. Will my year end with a nice, complete full-stop with everything settled, or just even more disappointment?

uncertainty

3 days and i finished a chinese novel online. Nice story. But i guess i'd have to take a break now, since i'd always be void of the world whenever i start reading a book and get captured into it.
Today was getting back results day. Not worth celebrating at all. Not at all. It was quite horrible, and i wonder whether or not my french had affected me in certain ways, since i only started to really pay full attention studying after my french exams. I guess i may have to give up on it next year. Hope i can endure a bit longer. I don't wish to give up!!! But still, i bet i don't have a choice... I feel uncertain, scared even. i just heard that vjc would be looking at our results, though i didn't receive any email that indicates that we have to show them the exams results...But i heard from others it was in the mail. I checked and couldn't find any. So, what the heck is happening? What if my results turn out to be horrible? I dread to think of the worst possible outcome... I don't know. I feel lost. No doubt this holiday i would be studying really really hard and when the year starts , i'd have no time at all to slack or whatsoever. It'd be study time. I don't know if i'd be able to stand it, to be able to endure through, to be able to do well. What if i end up being kicked out or that i can't stand it anymore? Then how? I don't know why i lost the confidence that i had just yesterday. The confidence that i have to pull me through the next few years no matter what. My results? Comparison with others? If my studies were really below standard, then why was i selected to go for the interview? My cca will stop after annual camp, but that would be like 16 november? I guess my holiday is just studying. No time to enjoy, go out everyday... Once again, i'm stuck in the middle, having no idea whether to step forward or retreat backward. I don't know. I really don't know...

first meal my bro cooked for me

Today, my brother actually cooked breakfast for me. Hotdog and egg. Looked a liitle too oily but still, wow. Unbelievable. I was about to prepare my own breakfast when he came in and told me that using the frying pan is faster. Then, being lazy, i told him to help me cook my share too and he actually said OK. The first meal that my brother cooked for me. WOW.

My money!!!

26 dollars gone because of some ***** internet thing on the phone. There goes my pocket money. I guess i shall just fast in school. Lesson learnt: Never use phone's internet. :(

失望啊！

It's halloween soon. Hence, i've decided to change my blogskin back. Today was tiring and nothing fun, since i've got a horrible sore throat. I spent the first half of the day in Mr Tay's office, writing cards and watching videos. I've did all those in two days. *proud looks*

It's disappointing, that someone was actually very happy that i'm leaving. One whole year spent together, doesn't it mean anything to you? We may not be good friends, but we can still be friends right? Or are you just so afraid that i would steal any position away from you? Am i such a threat to you? I've never really hankered after any position, since i've been planning to leave. Haix.

A few days before exams, Mr boy (from vjc) called me and offered me a place in the school. It was kind of last minute and i only had a day to think about it.

'I've been trying to reach you for the past few days. Please call me.'

'Hi wen jing. I do not know if this is the right time to tell you this. It may be good news to you. We do have a place in Vjc and you are next on the list. As we do not wish to waste this last place and that this place is highly sought after, please make a decision quick.'

The first thing i thought of were my cca friends, Evan, cui wen, li fang. Then, were some other problems that i may face there and i didn't know what to do. I called my mum and almost cried. Over the phone, i could hear my mom's colleague telling me to accept. Then, at night, my mum was already filling my grandparents in with the details of the new school. 30 minutes of consultation from my tutor, with him promising me that he'll tutor me and i'd be able to cope with the studies, plus one whole hour of talk with my cousin who was in hwa chong ip, i finally decided to accept. I know i'd be giving up a lot of things, but perhaps i just so desperately want to get out of this school that i'm willing to take the pain of leaving my good friends behind... I've decided on this path, there's no more turning back and i can't regret. I do hope this is the right choice.

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

Finally, freedom! Exams are all over. No more mugging, studying, television programmes here i come! 15 more days. Just 15 days left. We'll make good use of the remaining time right?
To Evan, Li fang and cui wen
I'm sorry
Let's cherish the remaining time k?

Science Paper left

One more paper to go--- science. I haven't exactly studied for it, the paper i'm least confident of. I'm getting sick and tired of studying and i almost vomitted my dinner out yesterday. Hence, i went to bed early, at 9+. The papers so far are quite ok, nothing too difficult. But i'm worried for tomorrow's science. I haven't studied my biology and chemistry seems only half done. One last paper to go and i'm freed. So, cheers!
All will be revealed soon. I hope it won't be too difficult.

study, study, study

3 more days to eoy. How i wish it ends earlier. I'm currently feeling the stress, what with the sleepless nights and dreaming of going hiking and seeing rivers, with some tiger-head-marine creature popping out from the river itself (i'm learning rivers in geography) and solving maths (trigonometry) and science chemical equations in my dreams. Yet, when i woke up, i forgot all the sums i solved. Sleepless nights are horrible. At least now, i finally understand trigonometry, geography just a bit more to memorize, chinese considered done just that i'd need more spelling, science memorize biology, revise chemical equations and read through important chemical reactions. That should be all. All thanks to Yeeling, Mr Tay and my tutor, who spent so much time explaining to me. But of course, big hugs and kisses to my assesment book. Without it, i'd still be blur. A few more days to end of exams. I'm looking forward to 6 days later...
I'm finally settled with what bothered me for the last few months. Although my mum has doubts, but i do hope that our friendship will last. It's not easy finding a friend that can really joke and play around with and all these come just so naturally it's as though a part of us are fitted nicely like a jigsaw puzzle. We can do it. Eliminate the differences and talk things out when in doubts. We'd be able to make it through the test of time right? Being positive is all that we need. Cheers!

Why must this happen to me? CHOICES! Argh...

This is a hazy day

Wow. This is my 101 post already. RELIEVED! My french exam is finally over, although i'm pretty sure that i have flunked my science pop quiz. But, nevermind. I don't mind going for science supplementary since i've got no french lessons for now. My fench EOY written exam was kind of horrible, didn't understand what the comprehension passage was. Forget it. No use pondering over it since it's all over.
RI boys seem much more polite than anglican's. There was this guy sitting in front of me during the exams and when i passed the foolscap paper or exam paper to him, it's kind of different. It's not the usual way when someone take a stack of worksheet away from you. It's like more gentle. You don't feel that the worksheet is snatched away from you. He waited for me to let go of the worksheet before he really took it away. I bet you don't understand what i was saying. Forget it.
There was this guy whom i mentioned before, Cow, Now whenever i look at him, i'll think of a real cow. I was laughing all the way when i see him and just couldn't stop. His friends and him were walking behind Ainina and me and i could hear his friends going 'moo...moo' It was simply hilarious.
This morning, Paul seemed to have went haywire or something. He walked between the rows of 2a and 2b class but there wasn't much space in between and he managed to squeezed through, knocking and hitting everyone on his way. That sight was really amusing. I think i laughed for the next 20 minutes.

''Don't question the fact''

''My advice to you is to accept things as it is. There are things that science cannot explain. Don't question the theory now when you are still studying. If you want, you can come up with your own theory to go against the current one when you go to university to get your doctorate. But for now, just accept it.''

-Mr Hamizan

That was a quote from my tutor, after yesterday's tuition. There are so many things that even those who came up with the theory of atmoic structures cannot explain. There are so many things, like how the atoms work and clump together to form an element, that no one can explain. Like, 'Why does your heart beat?' If it were the atoms in the cells that move about to start the heart beating, then how does it even stop? And why did it even start? If it came from your parents, then maybe in the sperm and egg, there are atoms that divide themselves to form every part of the human structure, and one part of the cell consists the characteristics of the heart, it divides itself and form the organ while the foetus grows. Can an atom divide itself? Or in some way or another, 'give birth' to more atoms? If it is not possible, then how is it that the organs can be formed? And if the atoms keep the heart from beating, then why do they even stop? It's not a complete thing that is being taught. If they themself cannot answer my questions, why is it that they are teaching everyone their theory? There may even be part of the theory that isn't true, that has loopholes. But, as what my tutor said, '' Don't question the fact.''

quote of the day

'Come to 2C, i protect you with my wings'
-cuiwen
That's what friends are for huh?

3 exams in a day and celebration at night

English paper one=above average
Chinese paper one= terrible
french oral= comical
I shan't emphasize on the first two, since it's nothing much to talk about. French oral was just, hilarious. I got 'school' and 'inviting a friend out' topic. Talking about school was OK, since I've revised about it before hand. Just that the teacher kept giving the 'what are you saying?' face and broke into chuckles. I told him that i do not like my school, because when i question my teacher, he say 'check your book' and that i have to climb 5 floors up everyday to reach my class. It is very tiring and i don't like it.
The situation of inviting a friend is kind of horrible. The start was alright, but towards the end, he asked some question that i didn't know what he was asking. He repeated thrice and i stared at him, smiling to myself sheepishly. After a long while, i understood a bit and he was like asking what to do before the movie. I said to eat, he said eat what, and i was like e chicken? rice? But he did not get me, probably because i pronounced wrongly or something. So, in the end, i said cake and he was like cake for dinner? I said i don't eat much and after all that, he said the cake for dinner part is not very logical, though the others are alright. French orals have always been enjoying though terrible when you can't remember your vocabulary.
Mid Autumn celebrations was alright, not very fun or memorable, since i spent half the time talking to Phyllis. :) The performance was great, though the PA system was not very ideal.Returned home late, very tired.

science lab

Today's science lab was quite cool, the first fun lab lesson, i would say. We had the chance to watch some magnesium ribbon explode into a very bright, white flame and add some stuff into the fire to make the fire turn green. It was cool, kind of like potions actually. I'd be so glad if harry potter world really exists. JK Rowling created a whole new world that almost everyone would want to be in.
Meredith: Look! under the test tube you can see your reflection! So cool!
Me: That's stupid.
Meredith took test tube sample (that was passed around) up and starts proving to me that it is true.
Meredith: See! *acts like some nursery kid*
Teacher: pass the sample back to me
Meredith: No! i haven't see yet.
Teacher: but you have to look at this first.
Meredith: then i look at that first and look at this after that
Teacher: ok

She speaks like some 4 year old...I don't think the child care children even do that. -_-''
The way she speak sometimes is just hilarious. Maybe she learnt that from Li fang. Erhem *cough, cough*

How i wish to live in a world totally different from mine now. In a magical world far more exciting than this. Even if it means that it will end with a tragic finale, i wouldn't have any regrets. I would give anything for a life like that.

闭嘴！

今天，数学课，科学课，一头雾水，什么也听不懂。班上总是那么吵，不但不能专心，还听不懂老师在说什么。我快哭了。这样下去，我随时都会崩溃。没过多久就考试了，以现在的状况来说，考试，一个字---死。
累了，厌倦了。好想放手啊！我还有资格重新开始吗？

Selamat hari raya!

Alright. Selamat Hari Raya to all malay friends, though i think i only know one- Ainina. French oral and paper one this friday, after that i'll have to rush back to school for mid autumn festival. Sounds like i can't rest at all huh?
I was watching teen titans, the cartoon version (there's a shuai ge inside) and then, talked to cui wen and she was watching the 'don't forget the lyrics chinese version'. In the end i switched to her show and she switched to my show. She claims that i cheated her feelings and i told her: 'I just woke up from my dream and realised i'm not a kid anymore. So, i switched channels.'
cui wen:'learn from me one right?'
Cuiwen's the small little girl who goes around saying 'It starts with a T, it's triangular and it's delicious. guess what it is!'
Answer: tolberone -_-'
Then, she started 'singing' a tolberone song through msn. As usual.
Noisy though she is, she do lift people's spirits :)

There was this guy in third lang who tore his shirt sleeve and there was this big hole shown to public. It was rather revealing, especially when he was wearing slippers coz he injured his toe or something. I wanted to use 'sexy' to describe him, but it doesn't seem right since he isn't. And i've known him as 'Cow' for the whole year and today, i realised that that was his nickname. As for his real name, Don't remember. :D

You are totally not responsible and you always give the indifferent look. Even when you are at wrong, you give the 'it's not my fault' face every time something happens and debate is all you would do. Is sorry so difficult to say? So what if you score well for your test? Do you have to keep boasting about it for the whole period? Seriously, what the heck is your problem?